Pet Peeve

We're all learning something new about ourselves each other. Recently, i found out what really ticks me off..BIG TIME! INJUSTICE and someone who doesn't keep his/her word.

Injustice in my own words..when something is done in an unfair manner. I'm a very strong advocate that one should carry out his/ her responsibility thoroughly. I cannot stand when one does not do things 'right'. A lot of times, i will review in my mind what the right thing is..or what i would do if i were in that position etc etc. I get so mad when i see INCONSISTENCY in the way a person handles things.

And really, i think that my intolerance towards injustice has a close link to my aggravation towards someone who doesn't keep his/ her word. When someone does not deliver what he promised me he will do, i get really upset. And i mean..REALLY upset. I think that he should NOT even give me his word in the first place if he wasn't planning on keeping his word. How disrespectful to lead someone to trust that you will keep your word and then only to let them down.

I know that not everyone out there gets ticked-off by such people..but i really have a hard time with people like that. Yes, God is full of GRACE and MERCY. But like i said..these are things that i found out about myself recently. Yeah, i need to be gracious..but how much better this place would be..if things are done rightly/fairly/justly..and people deliver what their words promise to.

Sigh..anyways. That's my frustrations right now..just thought i could let out some constant thoughts in my heart.

berylynn

Is It Really Possible?

I'm at home right now, resting from a full day of being in front of the computer screen. Have been thinking today..is it really possible to work and study at the same time? Is it possible to be newly weds, adjusting to a new life and still take time to study? Not to mention the work load involved for ministry? What about the money for school fees? One semester's school fees here is similar to what one needs to pay for 3 years of Public University's fees back home.

YET..in saying all that. I searched deep within..and i'm forced to ask myself this question: do i believe that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me? Do i really believe God when He said "NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD"? Do i believe that I am made in His image? Do i believe that i can achieve and excel in the dreams and hopes that He has put in my heart? Do i believe that I am the head and not the tail? Do i believe that when i am weak, that's when He's strong?

"I DO!" I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and He is my Provider!!

lynn

Joke

I was waiting for my hubby to pick me up from work today. I get off at 6pm, but he finishes at about 6.20pm and he has to drive to church to pick me up. So usually, he gets here by 6.50-7.00pm. That leaves me a lot of time to just relax after a long day at work. So, i went online to www.thestar.com.my (a local Malaysian news online) and read a funny joke. I told the joke to Tom in the car and he laughed so hard! He thought it was so funny that he already told the joke to 2 of his friends tonight. Just thought you guys might wanna read and check it out!!

To my blonde friends out there. No offense, okay?? It's just a joke....

A lawyer and a blonde woman were sitting next to each other on a long flight. The lawyer leaned over to her and asked if she would like to play a fun game. The blond decline and turned towards the window to catch a few winks.

The lawyer persisted, saying that the game was really easy and a lot of fun. "I ask you a question and if you don't know the answer, you pay me, and vice-versa. Again, the blond politely declined and tried to get some sleep.

The lawyer made another offer. "Okay, if you don't know the answer, you pay me $5, but if I don't know the answer, I pay you $50." The blond agreed.

The lawyer asked the first question : "What's the distance from the earth to the moon?". The blond silently reached into her purse, pulled out a five-dollar bill, and handed it to the lawyer. Then she asked the lawyer : "What goes up the hill with three legs and comes down with four?"

The lawyer took out his laptop and searched all his references. He tapped into the airphone with his modem and searched the net. Frustrated, he sent emails to all his co- workers and friends. All to no avail. After and hour, he gave up.

He woke the blonde and gave her fifty bucks. The blond took the money, then turned away to get back to sleep. The lawyer asked the blond: "Well, so what is the answer?".

Again, without a word, the blonde reached into her purse, took out five bucks and handed it to the lawyer, and went back to sleep.

Cheers!

Countdown

Muahahahhahahaaaa....the countdown begins. 11 days, 10, 9, 8, 7....i'm going home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pics

Mum and Ah Yee..


Chee Phang and Ah Loo..

Family..

Grandparents..

Sweetheart..

Missing home..

God??

Today, i'm reminded that God's standards are so high yet, He never lowers His standards just because we cannot possibly meet them in our inadequate attempt to! BUT, i am also reminded and comforted that while His standards are high, He also abounds in His multi-faceted character...

His love is deep
His love is wide
His love is strong and..
His mercies never dry!

His goodness sufficient
His grip of grace tight
His Gift is offered
So men should never die!

what else can we ask for? what else can we demand??
God in the flesh..Immanuel has come! ~If God is for us, who can be against us??~

in awe..beryl

Girls Girls..

Ever strong and charming Felicia...

Oh..playful and beloved Eloise..

Loved and missed..

Worth It All-Rita Springer

I don't understand Your ways
Oh but I will give You my song
Give You all of my praise
You hold on to all my pain
With it You are pulling me closer
And pulling me into Your ways

Now around every corner
And up every mountain
I'm not looking for crowns
Or the water from fountains
I'm desperate in seeking, frantic believing
That the sight of Your face
Is all that I need
I will say to You

It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it all
I believe this
It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it all
I believe this

You're gonna be worth it
You're gonna be worth it
You're gonna be worth it all
I believe this
You're gonna be worth it
You're gonna be worth it
You're gonna be worth it all
I believe this

this songs is for me..and also for a dear dear friend-Michel..we miss you.

Thankful

As i begin this new year with great and many challenges ahead..i want to pause and be thankful for the precious blessings that God Almighty has lavished upon me..

i thank God for..

my salvation..
my family and dear ones..
my friends both near and far..
my church here and at home..
the opportunity to study abroad here in CFNI and beyond..
His providence..
His faithfulness..
His steadfastness..
His belief in me..

without all the above, i wouldn't be who i am today, i wouldn't be where i am today. thank you Lord for life..and life abundantly! keep me in your path Lord..

~pheng

heart laid bare

When life is slipping away from between my fingers..i turn to You.

When life seem impossible..i trust in You.

When i do not understand..i hope in You.

Words are not enough, Lord you know my heart, You know my cry...You know my needs. If You do not come through, there's no more hope. Do only what You can do Lord..breathe life! Bring life!!

p/s: i'm praying and believing for life for 2 people: Michel's dad..and someone else very close to my heart. Please pray for a life of an embrio who has no heartbeat and is believed to have no hope of survival. What is impossible to man, is possible to our God..

Only believe..

???

God created man and woman in His image. When man sinned in the garden of Eden, God killed an animal to cloth Adam and Eve with the animal skin. God's glory that covered man left because of their downfall and their sin. If covering up was not essential, why did God take all the trouble to perform the first 'murder'?? ...just to make a fashion statement??

We have been robbed from our identity in God, from His design. Women are told that the more skin you reveal, the better! It is considered as sexy and appealing. The world thinks it's great, and the men thinks it's phenomenal!! Of course, that is a very sweeping statement..i know. I apologize and honor you men out there who truly honor a woman as God's precious daughter. BUT generally, that's what the world has become.

Pornography is so prevalent today. Everything or maybe MOST of what you hear in secular songs today are about love and sex. Everything you see in most movies, if not all..has sexual scenes, suggestive scenes or conversations. Hollywood and most of all the advertising companies uses sex as a tool to sell their product. What has a car got to do with girls wearing skimpy clothings? What has promoting a body shampoo or even shampoo got to do with women without shirts?? What has selling music got to do with posing with a bikini for the front CD cover? What happened??? How did we end up like this??? *&#^$*&@#^

Satan has robbed us!! God has designed sex to be beautiful and fulfilling under the covenant of marriage. It will be a curse if done anywhere or anytime outside of a marriage covenant. I say curse because it really brings nothing good but sorrow, self-hatred, purposelessness, hopelessness..and the list goes on and on. Marriage is a symbol of God's covenant love to us. Marriage is the ultimate relationship that will mirror God's relationship and covenant to His people. That's why the devil tries so hard to twist and pervert what God has design to be beautiful!!

I want to encourage and challenge you ladies out there, to dress in a way that honors God. and to wait until after marriage for sexual fulfillment. To you godly men out there, continue to pursue holiness and consecration unto the Lord in your thoughts and the things you see. God knows it's hard in this highly sexualised society..BUT He will give you the strength! No temptation is too great that you cannot overcome! He will honor you as you choose to honor and love Him..as you honor and love His precious daughters...

There is hope in this hopeless world..for those who hope in the Lord shall not be put to shame!! Hallelujah!!!!!~

Faith?

Wether we realise it or not, we live by faith everyday..

When you sleep at night, you believe that your lungs will not fail you in inhaling and exhaling O2. You believe that you will wake up the next morning alive and well.

When you turn on the hot water tap, you believe that it will turn hot even when in reality, it is cold. You continue to allow the cold water to run because you believe that it will turn hot in a few moments.

When you get into your car, you believe that the engine will start to take you where you want to go.

When you sit on a chair, you believe that it will support your weight.

When you eat, you believe that the food is clean and that you won't get diarrhoea!

That is FAITH!! If we use faith everyday..then why in the world is it sometimes so hard for us to trust in the unfailing God. His love never fails..heaven and earth will pass away, but His Word will remain. His Word is Jesus and Jesus is Love. Neither one will fail...

Jesus will NOT fail..
His Word will NOT fail..
and His Love will NEVER fail!

"Easier said than done!" ..but God knows you try. He will help your unbelief if only you would ask. "So go ahead! Jump off the cliff of self-sufficiency. Leap out of legalism. Walk off the pier of guilt and condemnation. That's the only way you'll land in the strong arms of the father who loves you..the Father who catches you-every time-in the grip of His grace." - Max Lucado

........... berylynn

I Will Be Here

I Will Be Here
(Steven Curtis Chapman)

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here.

Snowing!!`

Fa la la la laaa la la la laaaa...

It's snowing NOW!!! Snow..snow..woohoo!! I enjoyed walking in the snow and watch how the snow flakes fall on my black coat. There is snow on the cars, on the roof..everywhere!! I was on my way back from lunch at the cafeteria and i picked up some snow in my hands, took it into my apartment..and threw it at my roomie-Sarah!! Ahahahahahaaa...that was so FUN! Besides the fact that she treatened to throw snow at me when i'm sleeping!

Anyways..just wanted to share my excitement with you guys ler..enjoy the sun in Penang for me! and i'll enjoy the snow for you~ i wanna try to take some pictures..and put it up here..SOON!

*chad's nuts roasting on the fire....*

=))

Please Pray

please pray for me..i've been down with severe cough and flu for a week now. i struggle to fall asleep.. please pray for healing.

thank you..

Racial Discrimination??

List of racial discriminations in Malaysia

List of racial discriminations in Malaysia, practiced by government as wellas government agencies. This list is an open secret. Best verified by government itself because it got the statistics. This list is not in the order of importance, that means the first one on the list is not the most important and the last one on the list does not mean least important. This list is a common knowledge to a lot of Malaysians, especially those non-malays (Chinese, Ibans, Kadazans, Orang Asli, Indians, etc) who were being racially discriminated. Figures in this list are estimates only and please take it as a guide only. Government of Malaysia has the most correct figures. Is government of Malaysia too ashamed to publish their racist acts by publishing racial statistics?

This list cover a period of about 48 years since independence (1957). List of racial discriminations (Malaysia):

(1) Out of all the 5 major banks, only one bank is multi-racial, the rest are controlled by Malays

(2) 99% of Petronas directors are malays

(3) 3% of Petronas employees are Chinese

(4) 99% of 2000 Petronas gasoline stations are owned by malays

(5) 100% all contractors working under Petronas projects must be bumis status

(6) 0% of non-malays staffs is legally required in malay companies. But there must be 30% malays staffs in Chinese companies.

(7) 5% of all new intake for government police, nurses, army, is non-malays.

(8) 2% is the present Chinese staff in Royal Malaysian Air Force (RMAF), drop from 40% in 1960

(9) 2% is the percentage of non-malays government servants in Putrajaya. But malays make up 98%

(10) 7% is the percentage of Chinese government servants in the whole government (in 2004), drop from 30% in 1960

(11) 95% of government contracts are given to malays

(12) 100% all business licensees are controlled by malay government e.g. taxi permits, Approved permits, etc

(13) 80% of the Chinese rice millers in Kedah had to be sold to malay controlled Bernas in 1980s. Otherwise, life is make difficult for Chinese rice millers

(14) 100 big companies set up, owned and managed by Chinese Malaysians weretaken over by government, and later managed by malays since 1970s e.g. UTC, UMBC, MISC, etc

(15) At least 10 Chinese owned bus companies (throughout Malaysia, throughout 40 years) had to be sold to MARA or other malay transport companies due to rejection by malay authority to Chinese application for bus routes and rejection for their application for new buses

(16) 2 Chinese taxi drivers were barred from driving in Johor Larkin bus station. There are about 30 taxi drivers and 3 are Chinese in October 2004. Spoiling taxi club properties was the reason given

(17) 0 non-malays are allowed to get shop lots in the new Muar bus station (November 2004)

(18) 8000 billions ringgit is the total amount the government channeled to malays pockets through ASB, ASN, MARA, privatisation of government agencies, Tabung Haji etc, through NEP over 34 years period

(19) 48 Chinese primary schools closed down since 1968 - 2000

(20) 144 Indian primary schools closed down since 1968 - 2000

(21) 2637 malay primary schools built since 1968 - 2000

(22) 2.5% is government budget for Chinese primary schools. Indian schools got only 1%, malay schools got 96.5%

(23) While a Chinese parent with RM1000 salary (monthly) cannot get school-text-book-loan, a malay parent with RM2000 salary is eligible

(24) 10 all public universities vice chancellors are malays

(25) 5% - the government universities lecturers of non-malay origins had been reduced from about 70% in 1965 to only 5% in 2004

(26) Only 5% is given to non-malays for government scholarships over 40 years

(27) 0 Chinese or Indians were sent to Japan and Korea under "Look East Policy"

(28) 128 STPM Chinese top students could not get into the course that they aspired i.e. Medicine (in 2004)

(29) 10% place for non-bumi students for MARA science schools beginning from year 2003, but only 7% are filled. Before that it was 100% malays

(30) 50 cases whereby Chinese and Indian Malaysians, are beaten up in the National Service program in 2003

(31) 25% is Malaysian Chinese population in 2004, drop from 45% in 1957

(32) 7% is the present Malaysian Indians population (2004), a drop from 12% in 1957

(33) 2 millions Chinese Malaysians had emigrated to overseas since 40 years ago

(34) 0.5 million Indians Malaysians had emigrated to overseas

(35) 3 millions Indonesians had migrated into Malaysia and became Malaysian citizens with bumis status.

(36) 600000 are the Chinese and Indians Malaysians with red IC and were rejected repeatedly when applying for citizenship for 40 years. Perhaps 60% of them had already passed away due to old age. This shows racism of how easily Indonesians got their citizenships compare with the Chinese and Indians

(37) 5% - 15% discount for a malay to buy a house, regardless whether the malay is rich or poor

(38) 2% is what Chinese new villages get compare with 98% of what malays villages got for rural development budget

(39) 50 road names (at least) had been change from Chinese names to other names

(40) 1 Dewan Gan Boon Leong (in Malacca) was altered to other name (e.g.Dewan Serbaguna or sort) when it was being officially used for a few days. Government try to shun Chinese names. This racism happened in around year 2000 or sort

(41) 0 temples/churches were built for each housing estate. But every housing estate got at least one mosque/surau built

(42) 3000 mosques/surau were built in all housing estates throughout Malaysia since 1970. No temples, no churches are required to be built in housing estates

(43) 1 Catholic church in Shah Alam took 20 years to apply to be constructed. But told by malay authority that it must look like a factory and not look like a church. Still not yet approved in 2004

(44) 1 publishing of Bible in Iban language banned (in 2002)

(45) 0 of the government TV stations (RTM1, RTM2, TV3) are directors of non-malays origin

(46) 30 government produced TV dramas and films always showed that the bad guys had Chinese face, and the good guys had malay face. You can check it out since 1970s. Recent years, this tendency becomes less

(47) 10 times, at least, malays (especially Umno) had threatened to massacre the Chinese Malaysians using May 13 since 1969

(48) 20 constituencies won by DAP would not get funds from the government to develop. Or these Chinese majority constituencies would be the last to bedeveloped

(49) 100 constituencies (parliaments and states) had been racistly re-delineated so Chinese voters were diluted that Chinese candidates, particularly DAP candidates lost in election since 1970s

(50) Only 3 out of 12 human rights items are ratified by Malaysia government since 1960

(51) 0 elimination of, all forms of racial discrimination (UN Human Rights) is not ratified by Malaysia government since 1960s

(52) 20 reported cases whereby malay ambulance attendance treated Chinese patients inhumanely, and malay government hospital staffs purposely delay attending to Chinese patients in 2003. Unreported cases may be 200

(53) 50 cases each year whereby Chinese, especially Chinese youths being beaten up by malay youths in public places. We may check at police reports provided the police took the report, otherwise there will be no record

(54) 20 cases every year whereby Chinese drivers who accidentally knocked down malays were seriously assaulted or killed by malays

(55) 12% is what ASB/ASN got per annum while banks fixed deposit is only about 3.5% per annum


Is it reliable information? I don't know. So.....how do we respond to this??

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

More Babies

More pictures of babies...lalalaaa

Kai Ling, Mummy and Kai Xin..

Eloise...baby.... =)

Felicia..aawww...

lalaalaaa....pheng

Prayer Needs

Please pray for Thomas. He needs a financial breaktrough to be able to register for school on Monday..

Please pray for me..for strength. with my work schedule, and my assignments..and ministry.

Thank you..

My response..

We're all alarmed by the accusations against Pr. Ted Haggard. With all the buzz and cameras all over this nation, different people with different comments and opinions..it's crazy! I do not personally know this Pr, and haven't had the priviledge to learn from his teachings/ books whatsoever. I do not know the full story and i will never know the outcome of all this. The effects on the coming election, the church, his own family and the world. Yes, this news grieved me tremendously, but as i was pondering about this..God reminded me of this while i was in the bathroom! =P ...that "he who has no sin, let him throw the first stone"

Yup! That one sentence says it all. We have all sinned, we have all fallen short of the glory of God. Yes, there are consequences of sin..but who are we to judge when there is only One Judge. Where is the grace, mercy and love? It's not a time for the church to turn their back against each other or against Pr. Ted Haggard. It is a time to arise and be strong. Continue to run this race..and FINISH strong!! The book of John (in the Bible) says that it is by our love for each other that others will see and know that we are Christ's disciple. In this dark situation, let our love shine even brighter..let His love shine!! We are more than conquerors. We are VICTORS! It is our faith that overcomes the world!!

i love you JESUS!

Babies

Sigh..what can i say? I miss the girls sooo much! Look how much they've grown! It makes me cry everytime i look at their new pics. I missed the first baby step, the first tooth, the first spoken word, the first chuckle, the first laugh... =( Lord, please bless them lotsss and kiss them lots while i'm awayyyyyy...

This is Eloise-10 months old..


This is Felicia..1 year and 10 months old..


ahhh...*melt* so sweeeeettt!