When life is slipping away from between my fingers..i turn to You.
When life seem impossible..i trust in You.
When i do not understand..i hope in You.
Words are not enough, Lord you know my heart, You know my cry...You know my needs. If You do not come through, there's no more hope. Do only what You can do Lord..breathe life! Bring life!!
p/s: i'm praying and believing for life for 2 people: Michel's dad..and someone else very close to my heart. Please pray for a life of an embrio who has no heartbeat and is believed to have no hope of survival. What is impossible to man, is possible to our God..
Only believe..
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Thursday, December 21, 2006
???
God created man and woman in His image. When man sinned in the garden of Eden, God killed an animal to cloth Adam and Eve with the animal skin. God's glory that covered man left because of their downfall and their sin. If covering up was not essential, why did God take all the trouble to perform the first 'murder'?? ...just to make a fashion statement??
We have been robbed from our identity in God, from His design. Women are told that the more skin you reveal, the better! It is considered as sexy and appealing. The world thinks it's great, and the men thinks it's phenomenal!! Of course, that is a very sweeping statement..i know. I apologize and honor you men out there who truly honor a woman as God's precious daughter. BUT generally, that's what the world has become.
Pornography is so prevalent today. Everything or maybe MOST of what you hear in secular songs today are about love and sex. Everything you see in most movies, if not all..has sexual scenes, suggestive scenes or conversations. Hollywood and most of all the advertising companies uses sex as a tool to sell their product. What has a car got to do with girls wearing skimpy clothings? What has promoting a body shampoo or even shampoo got to do with women without shirts?? What has selling music got to do with posing with a bikini for the front CD cover? What happened??? How did we end up like this??? *&#^$*&@#^
Satan has robbed us!! God has designed sex to be beautiful and fulfilling under the covenant of marriage. It will be a curse if done anywhere or anytime outside of a marriage covenant. I say curse because it really brings nothing good but sorrow, self-hatred, purposelessness, hopelessness..and the list goes on and on. Marriage is a symbol of God's covenant love to us. Marriage is the ultimate relationship that will mirror God's relationship and covenant to His people. That's why the devil tries so hard to twist and pervert what God has design to be beautiful!!
I want to encourage and challenge you ladies out there, to dress in a way that honors God. and to wait until after marriage for sexual fulfillment. To you godly men out there, continue to pursue holiness and consecration unto the Lord in your thoughts and the things you see. God knows it's hard in this highly sexualised society..BUT He will give you the strength! No temptation is too great that you cannot overcome! He will honor you as you choose to honor and love Him..as you honor and love His precious daughters...
There is hope in this hopeless world..for those who hope in the Lord shall not be put to shame!! Hallelujah!!!!!~
We have been robbed from our identity in God, from His design. Women are told that the more skin you reveal, the better! It is considered as sexy and appealing. The world thinks it's great, and the men thinks it's phenomenal!! Of course, that is a very sweeping statement..i know. I apologize and honor you men out there who truly honor a woman as God's precious daughter. BUT generally, that's what the world has become.
Pornography is so prevalent today. Everything or maybe MOST of what you hear in secular songs today are about love and sex. Everything you see in most movies, if not all..has sexual scenes, suggestive scenes or conversations. Hollywood and most of all the advertising companies uses sex as a tool to sell their product. What has a car got to do with girls wearing skimpy clothings? What has promoting a body shampoo or even shampoo got to do with women without shirts?? What has selling music got to do with posing with a bikini for the front CD cover? What happened??? How did we end up like this??? *&#^$*&@#^
Satan has robbed us!! God has designed sex to be beautiful and fulfilling under the covenant of marriage. It will be a curse if done anywhere or anytime outside of a marriage covenant. I say curse because it really brings nothing good but sorrow, self-hatred, purposelessness, hopelessness..and the list goes on and on. Marriage is a symbol of God's covenant love to us. Marriage is the ultimate relationship that will mirror God's relationship and covenant to His people. That's why the devil tries so hard to twist and pervert what God has design to be beautiful!!
I want to encourage and challenge you ladies out there, to dress in a way that honors God. and to wait until after marriage for sexual fulfillment. To you godly men out there, continue to pursue holiness and consecration unto the Lord in your thoughts and the things you see. God knows it's hard in this highly sexualised society..BUT He will give you the strength! No temptation is too great that you cannot overcome! He will honor you as you choose to honor and love Him..as you honor and love His precious daughters...
There is hope in this hopeless world..for those who hope in the Lord shall not be put to shame!! Hallelujah!!!!!~
Monday, December 18, 2006
Faith?
Wether we realise it or not, we live by faith everyday..
When you sleep at night, you believe that your lungs will not fail you in inhaling and exhaling O2. You believe that you will wake up the next morning alive and well.
When you turn on the hot water tap, you believe that it will turn hot even when in reality, it is cold. You continue to allow the cold water to run because you believe that it will turn hot in a few moments.
When you get into your car, you believe that the engine will start to take you where you want to go.
When you sit on a chair, you believe that it will support your weight.
When you eat, you believe that the food is clean and that you won't get diarrhoea!
That is FAITH!! If we use faith everyday..then why in the world is it sometimes so hard for us to trust in the unfailing God. His love never fails..heaven and earth will pass away, but His Word will remain. His Word is Jesus and Jesus is Love. Neither one will fail...
Jesus will NOT fail..
His Word will NOT fail..
and His Love will NEVER fail!
"Easier said than done!" ..but God knows you try. He will help your unbelief if only you would ask. "So go ahead! Jump off the cliff of self-sufficiency. Leap out of legalism. Walk off the pier of guilt and condemnation. That's the only way you'll land in the strong arms of the father who loves you..the Father who catches you-every time-in the grip of His grace." - Max Lucado
........... berylynn
When you sleep at night, you believe that your lungs will not fail you in inhaling and exhaling O2. You believe that you will wake up the next morning alive and well.
When you turn on the hot water tap, you believe that it will turn hot even when in reality, it is cold. You continue to allow the cold water to run because you believe that it will turn hot in a few moments.
When you get into your car, you believe that the engine will start to take you where you want to go.
When you sit on a chair, you believe that it will support your weight.
When you eat, you believe that the food is clean and that you won't get diarrhoea!
That is FAITH!! If we use faith everyday..then why in the world is it sometimes so hard for us to trust in the unfailing God. His love never fails..heaven and earth will pass away, but His Word will remain. His Word is Jesus and Jesus is Love. Neither one will fail...
Jesus will NOT fail..
His Word will NOT fail..
and His Love will NEVER fail!
"Easier said than done!" ..but God knows you try. He will help your unbelief if only you would ask. "So go ahead! Jump off the cliff of self-sufficiency. Leap out of legalism. Walk off the pier of guilt and condemnation. That's the only way you'll land in the strong arms of the father who loves you..the Father who catches you-every time-in the grip of His grace." - Max Lucado
........... berylynn
Saturday, December 09, 2006
I Will Be Here
I Will Be Here
(Steven Curtis Chapman)
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here
I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here
I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here.
(Steven Curtis Chapman)
Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here
I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here
I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here
I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me
Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Snowing!!`
Fa la la la laaa la la la laaaa...
It's snowing NOW!!! Snow..snow..woohoo!! I enjoyed walking in the snow and watch how the snow flakes fall on my black coat. There is snow on the cars, on the roof..everywhere!! I was on my way back from lunch at the cafeteria and i picked up some snow in my hands, took it into my apartment..and threw it at my roomie-Sarah!! Ahahahahahaaa...that was so FUN! Besides the fact that she treatened to throw snow at me when i'm sleeping!
Anyways..just wanted to share my excitement with you guys ler..enjoy the sun in Penang for me! and i'll enjoy the snow for you~ i wanna try to take some pictures..and put it up here..SOON!
*chad's nuts roasting on the fire....*
=))
It's snowing NOW!!! Snow..snow..woohoo!! I enjoyed walking in the snow and watch how the snow flakes fall on my black coat. There is snow on the cars, on the roof..everywhere!! I was on my way back from lunch at the cafeteria and i picked up some snow in my hands, took it into my apartment..and threw it at my roomie-Sarah!! Ahahahahahaaa...that was so FUN! Besides the fact that she treatened to throw snow at me when i'm sleeping!
Anyways..just wanted to share my excitement with you guys ler..enjoy the sun in Penang for me! and i'll enjoy the snow for you~ i wanna try to take some pictures..and put it up here..SOON!
*chad's nuts roasting on the fire....*
=))
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Please Pray
please pray for me..i've been down with severe cough and flu for a week now. i struggle to fall asleep.. please pray for healing.
thank you..
thank you..
Racial Discrimination??
List of racial discriminations in Malaysia
List of racial discriminations in Malaysia, practiced by government as wellas government agencies. This list is an open secret. Best verified by government itself because it got the statistics. This list is not in the order of importance, that means the first one on the list is not the most important and the last one on the list does not mean least important. This list is a common knowledge to a lot of Malaysians, especially those non-malays (Chinese, Ibans, Kadazans, Orang Asli, Indians, etc) who were being racially discriminated. Figures in this list are estimates only and please take it as a guide only. Government of Malaysia has the most correct figures. Is government of Malaysia too ashamed to publish their racist acts by publishing racial statistics?
This list cover a period of about 48 years since independence (1957). List of racial discriminations (Malaysia):
(1) Out of all the 5 major banks, only one bank is multi-racial, the rest are controlled by Malays
(2) 99% of Petronas directors are malays
(3) 3% of Petronas employees are Chinese
(4) 99% of 2000 Petronas gasoline stations are owned by malays
(5) 100% all contractors working under Petronas projects must be bumis status
(6) 0% of non-malays staffs is legally required in malay companies. But there must be 30% malays staffs in Chinese companies.
(7) 5% of all new intake for government police, nurses, army, is non-malays.
(8) 2% is the present Chinese staff in Royal Malaysian Air Force (RMAF), drop from 40% in 1960
(9) 2% is the percentage of non-malays government servants in Putrajaya. But malays make up 98%
(10) 7% is the percentage of Chinese government servants in the whole government (in 2004), drop from 30% in 1960
(11) 95% of government contracts are given to malays
(12) 100% all business licensees are controlled by malay government e.g. taxi permits, Approved permits, etc
(13) 80% of the Chinese rice millers in Kedah had to be sold to malay controlled Bernas in 1980s. Otherwise, life is make difficult for Chinese rice millers
(14) 100 big companies set up, owned and managed by Chinese Malaysians weretaken over by government, and later managed by malays since 1970s e.g. UTC, UMBC, MISC, etc
(15) At least 10 Chinese owned bus companies (throughout Malaysia, throughout 40 years) had to be sold to MARA or other malay transport companies due to rejection by malay authority to Chinese application for bus routes and rejection for their application for new buses
(16) 2 Chinese taxi drivers were barred from driving in Johor Larkin bus station. There are about 30 taxi drivers and 3 are Chinese in October 2004. Spoiling taxi club properties was the reason given
(17) 0 non-malays are allowed to get shop lots in the new Muar bus station (November 2004)
(18) 8000 billions ringgit is the total amount the government channeled to malays pockets through ASB, ASN, MARA, privatisation of government agencies, Tabung Haji etc, through NEP over 34 years period
(19) 48 Chinese primary schools closed down since 1968 - 2000
(20) 144 Indian primary schools closed down since 1968 - 2000
(21) 2637 malay primary schools built since 1968 - 2000
(22) 2.5% is government budget for Chinese primary schools. Indian schools got only 1%, malay schools got 96.5%
(23) While a Chinese parent with RM1000 salary (monthly) cannot get school-text-book-loan, a malay parent with RM2000 salary is eligible
(24) 10 all public universities vice chancellors are malays
(25) 5% - the government universities lecturers of non-malay origins had been reduced from about 70% in 1965 to only 5% in 2004
(26) Only 5% is given to non-malays for government scholarships over 40 years
(27) 0 Chinese or Indians were sent to Japan and Korea under "Look East Policy"
(28) 128 STPM Chinese top students could not get into the course that they aspired i.e. Medicine (in 2004)
(29) 10% place for non-bumi students for MARA science schools beginning from year 2003, but only 7% are filled. Before that it was 100% malays
(30) 50 cases whereby Chinese and Indian Malaysians, are beaten up in the National Service program in 2003
(31) 25% is Malaysian Chinese population in 2004, drop from 45% in 1957
(32) 7% is the present Malaysian Indians population (2004), a drop from 12% in 1957
(33) 2 millions Chinese Malaysians had emigrated to overseas since 40 years ago
(34) 0.5 million Indians Malaysians had emigrated to overseas
(35) 3 millions Indonesians had migrated into Malaysia and became Malaysian citizens with bumis status.
(36) 600000 are the Chinese and Indians Malaysians with red IC and were rejected repeatedly when applying for citizenship for 40 years. Perhaps 60% of them had already passed away due to old age. This shows racism of how easily Indonesians got their citizenships compare with the Chinese and Indians
(37) 5% - 15% discount for a malay to buy a house, regardless whether the malay is rich or poor
(38) 2% is what Chinese new villages get compare with 98% of what malays villages got for rural development budget
(39) 50 road names (at least) had been change from Chinese names to other names
(40) 1 Dewan Gan Boon Leong (in Malacca) was altered to other name (e.g.Dewan Serbaguna or sort) when it was being officially used for a few days. Government try to shun Chinese names. This racism happened in around year 2000 or sort
(41) 0 temples/churches were built for each housing estate. But every housing estate got at least one mosque/surau built
(42) 3000 mosques/surau were built in all housing estates throughout Malaysia since 1970. No temples, no churches are required to be built in housing estates
(43) 1 Catholic church in Shah Alam took 20 years to apply to be constructed. But told by malay authority that it must look like a factory and not look like a church. Still not yet approved in 2004
(44) 1 publishing of Bible in Iban language banned (in 2002)
(45) 0 of the government TV stations (RTM1, RTM2, TV3) are directors of non-malays origin
(46) 30 government produced TV dramas and films always showed that the bad guys had Chinese face, and the good guys had malay face. You can check it out since 1970s. Recent years, this tendency becomes less
(47) 10 times, at least, malays (especially Umno) had threatened to massacre the Chinese Malaysians using May 13 since 1969
(48) 20 constituencies won by DAP would not get funds from the government to develop. Or these Chinese majority constituencies would be the last to bedeveloped
(49) 100 constituencies (parliaments and states) had been racistly re-delineated so Chinese voters were diluted that Chinese candidates, particularly DAP candidates lost in election since 1970s
(50) Only 3 out of 12 human rights items are ratified by Malaysia government since 1960
(51) 0 elimination of, all forms of racial discrimination (UN Human Rights) is not ratified by Malaysia government since 1960s
(52) 20 reported cases whereby malay ambulance attendance treated Chinese patients inhumanely, and malay government hospital staffs purposely delay attending to Chinese patients in 2003. Unreported cases may be 200
(53) 50 cases each year whereby Chinese, especially Chinese youths being beaten up by malay youths in public places. We may check at police reports provided the police took the report, otherwise there will be no record
(54) 20 cases every year whereby Chinese drivers who accidentally knocked down malays were seriously assaulted or killed by malays
(55) 12% is what ASB/ASN got per annum while banks fixed deposit is only about 3.5% per annum
Is it reliable information? I don't know. So.....how do we respond to this??
Happy Thanksgiving!!!
List of racial discriminations in Malaysia, practiced by government as wellas government agencies. This list is an open secret. Best verified by government itself because it got the statistics. This list is not in the order of importance, that means the first one on the list is not the most important and the last one on the list does not mean least important. This list is a common knowledge to a lot of Malaysians, especially those non-malays (Chinese, Ibans, Kadazans, Orang Asli, Indians, etc) who were being racially discriminated. Figures in this list are estimates only and please take it as a guide only. Government of Malaysia has the most correct figures. Is government of Malaysia too ashamed to publish their racist acts by publishing racial statistics?
This list cover a period of about 48 years since independence (1957). List of racial discriminations (Malaysia):
(1) Out of all the 5 major banks, only one bank is multi-racial, the rest are controlled by Malays
(2) 99% of Petronas directors are malays
(3) 3% of Petronas employees are Chinese
(4) 99% of 2000 Petronas gasoline stations are owned by malays
(5) 100% all contractors working under Petronas projects must be bumis status
(6) 0% of non-malays staffs is legally required in malay companies. But there must be 30% malays staffs in Chinese companies.
(7) 5% of all new intake for government police, nurses, army, is non-malays.
(8) 2% is the present Chinese staff in Royal Malaysian Air Force (RMAF), drop from 40% in 1960
(9) 2% is the percentage of non-malays government servants in Putrajaya. But malays make up 98%
(10) 7% is the percentage of Chinese government servants in the whole government (in 2004), drop from 30% in 1960
(11) 95% of government contracts are given to malays
(12) 100% all business licensees are controlled by malay government e.g. taxi permits, Approved permits, etc
(13) 80% of the Chinese rice millers in Kedah had to be sold to malay controlled Bernas in 1980s. Otherwise, life is make difficult for Chinese rice millers
(14) 100 big companies set up, owned and managed by Chinese Malaysians weretaken over by government, and later managed by malays since 1970s e.g. UTC, UMBC, MISC, etc
(15) At least 10 Chinese owned bus companies (throughout Malaysia, throughout 40 years) had to be sold to MARA or other malay transport companies due to rejection by malay authority to Chinese application for bus routes and rejection for their application for new buses
(16) 2 Chinese taxi drivers were barred from driving in Johor Larkin bus station. There are about 30 taxi drivers and 3 are Chinese in October 2004. Spoiling taxi club properties was the reason given
(17) 0 non-malays are allowed to get shop lots in the new Muar bus station (November 2004)
(18) 8000 billions ringgit is the total amount the government channeled to malays pockets through ASB, ASN, MARA, privatisation of government agencies, Tabung Haji etc, through NEP over 34 years period
(19) 48 Chinese primary schools closed down since 1968 - 2000
(20) 144 Indian primary schools closed down since 1968 - 2000
(21) 2637 malay primary schools built since 1968 - 2000
(22) 2.5% is government budget for Chinese primary schools. Indian schools got only 1%, malay schools got 96.5%
(23) While a Chinese parent with RM1000 salary (monthly) cannot get school-text-book-loan, a malay parent with RM2000 salary is eligible
(24) 10 all public universities vice chancellors are malays
(25) 5% - the government universities lecturers of non-malay origins had been reduced from about 70% in 1965 to only 5% in 2004
(26) Only 5% is given to non-malays for government scholarships over 40 years
(27) 0 Chinese or Indians were sent to Japan and Korea under "Look East Policy"
(28) 128 STPM Chinese top students could not get into the course that they aspired i.e. Medicine (in 2004)
(29) 10% place for non-bumi students for MARA science schools beginning from year 2003, but only 7% are filled. Before that it was 100% malays
(30) 50 cases whereby Chinese and Indian Malaysians, are beaten up in the National Service program in 2003
(31) 25% is Malaysian Chinese population in 2004, drop from 45% in 1957
(32) 7% is the present Malaysian Indians population (2004), a drop from 12% in 1957
(33) 2 millions Chinese Malaysians had emigrated to overseas since 40 years ago
(34) 0.5 million Indians Malaysians had emigrated to overseas
(35) 3 millions Indonesians had migrated into Malaysia and became Malaysian citizens with bumis status.
(36) 600000 are the Chinese and Indians Malaysians with red IC and were rejected repeatedly when applying for citizenship for 40 years. Perhaps 60% of them had already passed away due to old age. This shows racism of how easily Indonesians got their citizenships compare with the Chinese and Indians
(37) 5% - 15% discount for a malay to buy a house, regardless whether the malay is rich or poor
(38) 2% is what Chinese new villages get compare with 98% of what malays villages got for rural development budget
(39) 50 road names (at least) had been change from Chinese names to other names
(40) 1 Dewan Gan Boon Leong (in Malacca) was altered to other name (e.g.Dewan Serbaguna or sort) when it was being officially used for a few days. Government try to shun Chinese names. This racism happened in around year 2000 or sort
(41) 0 temples/churches were built for each housing estate. But every housing estate got at least one mosque/surau built
(42) 3000 mosques/surau were built in all housing estates throughout Malaysia since 1970. No temples, no churches are required to be built in housing estates
(43) 1 Catholic church in Shah Alam took 20 years to apply to be constructed. But told by malay authority that it must look like a factory and not look like a church. Still not yet approved in 2004
(44) 1 publishing of Bible in Iban language banned (in 2002)
(45) 0 of the government TV stations (RTM1, RTM2, TV3) are directors of non-malays origin
(46) 30 government produced TV dramas and films always showed that the bad guys had Chinese face, and the good guys had malay face. You can check it out since 1970s. Recent years, this tendency becomes less
(47) 10 times, at least, malays (especially Umno) had threatened to massacre the Chinese Malaysians using May 13 since 1969
(48) 20 constituencies won by DAP would not get funds from the government to develop. Or these Chinese majority constituencies would be the last to bedeveloped
(49) 100 constituencies (parliaments and states) had been racistly re-delineated so Chinese voters were diluted that Chinese candidates, particularly DAP candidates lost in election since 1970s
(50) Only 3 out of 12 human rights items are ratified by Malaysia government since 1960
(51) 0 elimination of, all forms of racial discrimination (UN Human Rights) is not ratified by Malaysia government since 1960s
(52) 20 reported cases whereby malay ambulance attendance treated Chinese patients inhumanely, and malay government hospital staffs purposely delay attending to Chinese patients in 2003. Unreported cases may be 200
(53) 50 cases each year whereby Chinese, especially Chinese youths being beaten up by malay youths in public places. We may check at police reports provided the police took the report, otherwise there will be no record
(54) 20 cases every year whereby Chinese drivers who accidentally knocked down malays were seriously assaulted or killed by malays
(55) 12% is what ASB/ASN got per annum while banks fixed deposit is only about 3.5% per annum
Is it reliable information? I don't know. So.....how do we respond to this??
Happy Thanksgiving!!!
Saturday, November 11, 2006
More Babies
More pictures of babies...lalalaaa
Kai Ling, Mummy and Kai Xin..
Eloise...baby.... =)
Felicia..aawww...
lalaalaaa....pheng
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Prayer Needs
Please pray for Thomas. He needs a financial breaktrough to be able to register for school on Monday..
Please pray for me..for strength. with my work schedule, and my assignments..and ministry.
Thank you..
Please pray for me..for strength. with my work schedule, and my assignments..and ministry.
Thank you..
My response..
We're all alarmed by the accusations against Pr. Ted Haggard. With all the buzz and cameras all over this nation, different people with different comments and opinions..it's crazy! I do not personally know this Pr, and haven't had the priviledge to learn from his teachings/ books whatsoever. I do not know the full story and i will never know the outcome of all this. The effects on the coming election, the church, his own family and the world. Yes, this news grieved me tremendously, but as i was pondering about this..God reminded me of this while i was in the bathroom! =P ...that "he who has no sin, let him throw the first stone"
Yup! That one sentence says it all. We have all sinned, we have all fallen short of the glory of God. Yes, there are consequences of sin..but who are we to judge when there is only One Judge. Where is the grace, mercy and love? It's not a time for the church to turn their back against each other or against Pr. Ted Haggard. It is a time to arise and be strong. Continue to run this race..and FINISH strong!! The book of John (in the Bible) says that it is by our love for each other that others will see and know that we are Christ's disciple. In this dark situation, let our love shine even brighter..let His love shine!! We are more than conquerors. We are VICTORS! It is our faith that overcomes the world!!
i love you JESUS!
Yup! That one sentence says it all. We have all sinned, we have all fallen short of the glory of God. Yes, there are consequences of sin..but who are we to judge when there is only One Judge. Where is the grace, mercy and love? It's not a time for the church to turn their back against each other or against Pr. Ted Haggard. It is a time to arise and be strong. Continue to run this race..and FINISH strong!! The book of John (in the Bible) says that it is by our love for each other that others will see and know that we are Christ's disciple. In this dark situation, let our love shine even brighter..let His love shine!! We are more than conquerors. We are VICTORS! It is our faith that overcomes the world!!
i love you JESUS!
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Babies
Sigh..what can i say? I miss the girls sooo much! Look how much they've grown! It makes me cry everytime i look at their new pics. I missed the first baby step, the first tooth, the first spoken word, the first chuckle, the first laugh... =( Lord, please bless them lotsss and kiss them lots while i'm awayyyyyy...
This is Eloise-10 months old..
This is Felicia..1 year and 10 months old..
ahhh...*melt* so sweeeeettt!
This is Eloise-10 months old..
This is Felicia..1 year and 10 months old..
ahhh...*melt* so sweeeeettt!
Sunday, October 22, 2006
today..
today it hit me hard..that..
- i am lost without God
- Thomas loves me dearly
.................
- i am lost without God
- Thomas loves me dearly
.................
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Morality-Grey, Black or White?
I just took my mid-term test today. I studied so hard, slept at 2am..and the result? I did so bad..in light of the effort i put in!! I was so disappointed with myself. It was so hard for me to believe that i did so bad. and i came out of the IB and i cried..tears came, cause i was so disappointed with myself.
Not only that, something else fuelled my dissatisfaction. People who took this course last year were allowed to keep their test papers. And the teacher used the SAME test paper this year. What happened was the students last year passed those test questions out to their friends and they just studied or memorized that because they know that it's gonna be the same test this time..verbatim!
That made me so mad! Is that right? Where's the conscience? The morality behind this? Is that not called cheating? Then why did the teacher allowed us to keep the test papers and give the same test again year after year. Why do bible college students choose the easy way out? the cheating way? Or is that deemed alright to help your friends that way? That's CHEATING!, right?!
Then why do i study so hard and get bad results because the test is tricky..while others just get away by memorizing the test paper? Where's the justice???
As for me, i feel better now. I think i just want to be so excellent that i want to be perfect. If i fail to get an 'A' for this paper..it's gonna be the first 'B' i get so far. It will break my heart..but i have to remind myself that my self-worth is not in how good i do in a paper. There are eternal values that are more important than just getting an 'A' in a paper. Yes, i believe in excellence with all my heart, but excellence is not perfection.
I hate to say this, but i just have to tell myself that..maybe i'm just not as smart as i think i am. I can be confident in myself..but my ultimate confidence should come from the Lord. I think i am better than average..sometimes i tell myself that i am smart. but hey..maybe..just maybe, i'm not that brilliant. i don't want to blame it on the tricky questions..cause i know i could have done better.
But it's okay now..it's all good. I've decided to put it all behind now. I will do better next time. I believe, i hope, and i'll do my best to make it up in my finals to score an 'A' for this paper. IF i don't, i'll have to be okay with it. It's not the end of the world!!
Dear..thanks for encouraging me..helping me cheer up. Sorry i almost blew up on you. =) i love you..
To all who are reading, i'm alright now. Don't worry, i didn't write this to get any consolation, i just need to express my thoughts in words. Thanks for *listening*
God..help me put You first in my heart, not studies..
...pheng
Not only that, something else fuelled my dissatisfaction. People who took this course last year were allowed to keep their test papers. And the teacher used the SAME test paper this year. What happened was the students last year passed those test questions out to their friends and they just studied or memorized that because they know that it's gonna be the same test this time..verbatim!
That made me so mad! Is that right? Where's the conscience? The morality behind this? Is that not called cheating? Then why did the teacher allowed us to keep the test papers and give the same test again year after year. Why do bible college students choose the easy way out? the cheating way? Or is that deemed alright to help your friends that way? That's CHEATING!, right?!
Then why do i study so hard and get bad results because the test is tricky..while others just get away by memorizing the test paper? Where's the justice???
As for me, i feel better now. I think i just want to be so excellent that i want to be perfect. If i fail to get an 'A' for this paper..it's gonna be the first 'B' i get so far. It will break my heart..but i have to remind myself that my self-worth is not in how good i do in a paper. There are eternal values that are more important than just getting an 'A' in a paper. Yes, i believe in excellence with all my heart, but excellence is not perfection.
I hate to say this, but i just have to tell myself that..maybe i'm just not as smart as i think i am. I can be confident in myself..but my ultimate confidence should come from the Lord. I think i am better than average..sometimes i tell myself that i am smart. but hey..maybe..just maybe, i'm not that brilliant. i don't want to blame it on the tricky questions..cause i know i could have done better.
But it's okay now..it's all good. I've decided to put it all behind now. I will do better next time. I believe, i hope, and i'll do my best to make it up in my finals to score an 'A' for this paper. IF i don't, i'll have to be okay with it. It's not the end of the world!!
Dear..thanks for encouraging me..helping me cheer up. Sorry i almost blew up on you. =) i love you..
To all who are reading, i'm alright now. Don't worry, i didn't write this to get any consolation, i just need to express my thoughts in words. Thanks for *listening*
God..help me put You first in my heart, not studies..
...pheng
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Family
This is Felicia, my eldest niece! She's now 1yr old and 7 months old. So gorgeous ah... =))
This is Eloise, my youngest niece. She's about 9 months old now. Cute eh??
This is my sister's graduation..back in Aug together with my parents.
Hehee..my picture updates!! =P
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Sick
Hmm..it's been more than a month since i last wrote. Anyways, it doesnt really matter..i think, cause not a lot of people read my blog save a few people like Mimi, Sammy and darling. This is the 4th time since i moved into this apt that i received free wireless reception. So i thought, yeah..might as well post stg in here.
Please pray for me. I am not feeling well. Down with flu and slight fever. I've taken flu medicine and i'm surprise i'm still awake. Please also pray for Thomas cause he's also sick..he probably passed his flu to me!
Other than that, it's been a crazy and hectic semester. I'm still slowly getting into my schedule for this semester. I'm working in the library, Starbucks and babysitting Isaiah (son of a friend) On Sundays, we're involved in the youth ministry..so there's quite a lot on my plate.
Okay..i'm gonna stop here. Got lots more to do online..since i'm on! =)) heheee..peace out!
Please pray for me. I am not feeling well. Down with flu and slight fever. I've taken flu medicine and i'm surprise i'm still awake. Please also pray for Thomas cause he's also sick..he probably passed his flu to me!
Other than that, it's been a crazy and hectic semester. I'm still slowly getting into my schedule for this semester. I'm working in the library, Starbucks and babysitting Isaiah (son of a friend) On Sundays, we're involved in the youth ministry..so there's quite a lot on my plate.
Okay..i'm gonna stop here. Got lots more to do online..since i'm on! =)) heheee..peace out!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Heading 'home'
It's 2.20am right now. I've just finished watching "Brave Heart" with Aaron and Luke (Sarah's brothers) It's been sweet and sour for me today, knowing that i'm heading back to Dallas tomorrow morning. I have always wanted to watch this movie, but another reason why i watched it tonight even though it's so late already is because i want to spend time with the boys. I've grown to love them, as friends and as brothers. I know that i will miss them much, but i know that i will see them again.
This family: Mr. Brian, Ms Jan, Sarah, Aaron, Luke, Papa Jack and Mima has been such a blessing to me this past week. They have embraced and accepted me as one of their own. What a tremendous joy..on top of that, they have also loved Thomas even though they've never met! Aaron also bought a gift for Thomas with his own money..because i mentioned that Thomas shares the same interest as him but just never had the money to buy and keep 'them'. Aaron came to me tonight and passed me a gift for Thomas. It spoke volumes!! It meant that he has loved me as a sister..and has also loved and accepted Thomas as he accepted me. It was so sweet!!
I don't quite know how to say what i feel about this family. Each has blessed me MORE than words can say..really! I can't wait till i see them again..maybe during Thanksgiving or Christmas..someday..SOON!
This family: Mr. Brian, Ms Jan, Sarah, Aaron, Luke, Papa Jack and Mima has been such a blessing to me this past week. They have embraced and accepted me as one of their own. What a tremendous joy..on top of that, they have also loved Thomas even though they've never met! Aaron also bought a gift for Thomas with his own money..because i mentioned that Thomas shares the same interest as him but just never had the money to buy and keep 'them'. Aaron came to me tonight and passed me a gift for Thomas. It spoke volumes!! It meant that he has loved me as a sister..and has also loved and accepted Thomas as he accepted me. It was so sweet!!
I don't quite know how to say what i feel about this family. Each has blessed me MORE than words can say..really! I can't wait till i see them again..maybe during Thanksgiving or Christmas..someday..SOON!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Clayground
Today, we (Sarah, Ms Jan: Sarah's mum and myself) went to Clayground and painted ourselves coffee cups and platter. Basically, you choose whatever you want to paint ranging from cups, mugs, photo frames, platter, napkin holder, plates..etc. Then, you can pick whatever colour you like and start painting on your selection of clay products! You can either paint one, two or even three coats as long as each layer is dry before applying the next. One layer of paint will give a water-colour kinda effect while three layers of paint will be an opaque colour.
There's different kinds of brushes: fat, round, thin. There are also some stencils or stamps that you can choose from to help you draw the motives you want on the cup. The pencil marks will disappear when the cup is heated in the fire and glazed. I'm excited to see the final outcome of my first hand-painted cup! woohoo...
That's the highlight of my day today. Will stay over at Sarah's grandparents' house tomorrow..till then.. =)
There's different kinds of brushes: fat, round, thin. There are also some stencils or stamps that you can choose from to help you draw the motives you want on the cup. The pencil marks will disappear when the cup is heated in the fire and glazed. I'm excited to see the final outcome of my first hand-painted cup! woohoo...
That's the highlight of my day today. Will stay over at Sarah's grandparents' house tomorrow..till then.. =)
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Redeeming Love
I slept at 4am yesterday..and spent almost the whole of today reading the BEST novel i have ever read so far in my life-"Redeeming Love" by Francine Rivers. It's a novel based on the story in the bible about prophet Hosea and his prostitude wife. It tells of how the Father's love is for us as well..undying, unquenchable, unconditional love for us. He's always hoping, always trusting, always luring us to come away with Him..to be in a love relationship with Him. It's sooo beautiful. I cried more than a dozen times, it's too good a book to not read it! So yeah, i highly recommend this book!!
After finishing the book, it dawned upon me that my sniffling and sneezing is more constant than my usual nasal problem. I've also had sorethroat since yesterday! I think i'm falling sick. Luke-Sarah's brother noticed my 'flu' or watever you call it..and asked if i was okay. I voluntarily asked to have some medicine! Unbelievable..anyways, so i took this cold medicine..and i'm starting to be sleepy. so i better go and sleep now..
Nights..
After finishing the book, it dawned upon me that my sniffling and sneezing is more constant than my usual nasal problem. I've also had sorethroat since yesterday! I think i'm falling sick. Luke-Sarah's brother noticed my 'flu' or watever you call it..and asked if i was okay. I voluntarily asked to have some medicine! Unbelievable..anyways, so i took this cold medicine..and i'm starting to be sleepy. so i better go and sleep now..
Nights..
Monday, August 07, 2006
El Paso
Just leaving a note to say that i've reached El Paso safely last night. I was so tired..i slept the entire way on my flight here. It was so good to see Sarah, my roomate in CFNI after almost 2 months! We chatted until almost 2am..so that gives me the 'excuse' to sleep until 11am this morning! Heehee..
This morning..i watched the movie "The Village" directed my M. Night Shamalan..(except the first 30 mins cause they started the movie already!) and i like the movie very much. Very interesting story.
Hahaa..cool. so yup..gotta go!
This morning..i watched the movie "The Village" directed my M. Night Shamalan..(except the first 30 mins cause they started the movie already!) and i like the movie very much. Very interesting story.
Hahaa..cool. so yup..gotta go!
Thursday, August 03, 2006
What Good Is The Armour of God....??
Hey peeps! I just came back from the Hillsong United worship night at High Point Church last night. It was really good. I don't know about how tight the band was, whether they were good musically, da da daa..but spiritually, it was good. I really connected with God and the presence of God was there.
When one of the worship leaders led, spoke and prayed..i can really sense his heart, his passion and closeness to the Lord. I think his name is Marty Sampson. Not just him, but the rest of the team..you can just tell from the way they worship. It was inspiring..another worship leader also blatantly said that they are not here to entertain us, but to worship God! That is so cool! I'm sure that hit some ppl hard in the face cause it is an American Christian culture to bring bands in. People come, people go..sometimes or most of the time, it seems more of an entertainment than a worship band to them. So yeah, it was really good that the team made that statement!
After the worship, the Hillsong United youth pastor came up to speak. He was challenging us to stand for Jesus and not to go with the flow of society. What really struck me was the testimony he shared at the end of the sermon..
There was a youth named Jeremy in his youth group. At the end of each youth service, the pastor will randomly pick a high school's name and pray for the school. One day, he picked the name of a particular high school and asked if there's anyone who goes to that school so that they can be prayed for. No one came to the stage..but after waiting for a while, a boy slowly walked up to the stage to be prayed for-Jeremy.
From that point forward, Jeremy lived his life all out for Jesus. He brought 5 friends the following youth service and all of them got saved. He was radical!! Even when Jeremy graduated from that high school, he would still go back to the school to give seminars and talks to the students on self-esteem, values and leadership. He served and loved the people. The principal and students simply loved him!
Early this year, Jeremy died in a tragic car accident at the age of 19. At the funeral, 1500 ppl turned up!! The principal rented buses to take loads of students from the high school to attend Jeremy's funeral. Talk about the impact he made!!
Towards the end of the funeral, 2 of Jeremy's younger brothers came up to share their hearts. One of the brothers shared, that while he was looking through Jeremy's journal..this one line struck his heart.. "What good is the armour of God..without a warrior in it?????"
I am challenged to be that warrior that God has called me to be. To be a Frontliner..to stand at the battle line, pushing back the forces of darkness..and preparing the way for the pivotal event-the coming of our Prince of Peace!!
What good is living if we do not make a difference with our lives? What good is calling ourselves Christians if we do not shine in this dark world? What good are these vessels if they do not bring glory to the Maker? What good is the armour of God..if there is not warrior in it??
When one of the worship leaders led, spoke and prayed..i can really sense his heart, his passion and closeness to the Lord. I think his name is Marty Sampson. Not just him, but the rest of the team..you can just tell from the way they worship. It was inspiring..another worship leader also blatantly said that they are not here to entertain us, but to worship God! That is so cool! I'm sure that hit some ppl hard in the face cause it is an American Christian culture to bring bands in. People come, people go..sometimes or most of the time, it seems more of an entertainment than a worship band to them. So yeah, it was really good that the team made that statement!
After the worship, the Hillsong United youth pastor came up to speak. He was challenging us to stand for Jesus and not to go with the flow of society. What really struck me was the testimony he shared at the end of the sermon..
There was a youth named Jeremy in his youth group. At the end of each youth service, the pastor will randomly pick a high school's name and pray for the school. One day, he picked the name of a particular high school and asked if there's anyone who goes to that school so that they can be prayed for. No one came to the stage..but after waiting for a while, a boy slowly walked up to the stage to be prayed for-Jeremy.
From that point forward, Jeremy lived his life all out for Jesus. He brought 5 friends the following youth service and all of them got saved. He was radical!! Even when Jeremy graduated from that high school, he would still go back to the school to give seminars and talks to the students on self-esteem, values and leadership. He served and loved the people. The principal and students simply loved him!
Early this year, Jeremy died in a tragic car accident at the age of 19. At the funeral, 1500 ppl turned up!! The principal rented buses to take loads of students from the high school to attend Jeremy's funeral. Talk about the impact he made!!
Towards the end of the funeral, 2 of Jeremy's younger brothers came up to share their hearts. One of the brothers shared, that while he was looking through Jeremy's journal..this one line struck his heart.. "What good is the armour of God..without a warrior in it?????"
I am challenged to be that warrior that God has called me to be. To be a Frontliner..to stand at the battle line, pushing back the forces of darkness..and preparing the way for the pivotal event-the coming of our Prince of Peace!!
What good is living if we do not make a difference with our lives? What good is calling ourselves Christians if we do not shine in this dark world? What good are these vessels if they do not bring glory to the Maker? What good is the armour of God..if there is not warrior in it??
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
BORED
I am so bored right now i can almost puke! I i don't feel like reading a book, i've cleaned and organized all my belongings, i've baked a cheesecake, i've watched tv, i've read articles online, i've done almost everything i can think of..and i'm still bored! arghhhhhhh!!
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Monday, July 31, 2006
Family
I'm trying so hard to remain composed..but i really miss my family. I wanna go home. I want to be near my family..Lord please speed up the time i have to spend here away from them. Bless them with many joyful and happy days, with good health, good friends, good relationships. Most of all, may they all come to know your love soon. Amen...
Left to Right: Kenneth (my brother-in-law/Loo's husband), Pheng Loo (eldest sister), Pheng Geok (second sister), Mama, Felicia Khaw(eldest niece-Loo's daughter), Papa, Me, Chee Keong (elder brother)
This pic was taken in May 2005 before i came to Dallas in June 2005.
Not in picture: Newborn niece-Eloise Khaw sister of Felicia
Was looking through some pictures and THIS ONE caught my eyes. I personally took this priceless picture. I'm so proud of myself! So cuteeeeeeee right? Hahaa..she's MINE! =P Oh..btw, this is Felicia.
Missing all...
MISSING
Missing for more than a week. Last heard from email weeks ago. If you have seen this girl or have any information about her whereabouts..please contact me at berylynn@hotmail.com. A handsome reward given for helpful information.
Name: Emily Yeoh Pheng Geok
Height: Approx 5 feet 3"
Eyes: Dark brown
Hair: Black
Languages spoken: English, Malay, Mandarin, Hokkien
Others: Very funny girl, laughs at a lot of things, drives a metalic brown Iswara
Note: Does not wear braces anymore..
Picture: The one with blue jacket
Name: Emily Yeoh Pheng Geok
Height: Approx 5 feet 3"
Eyes: Dark brown
Hair: Black
Languages spoken: English, Malay, Mandarin, Hokkien
Others: Very funny girl, laughs at a lot of things, drives a metalic brown Iswara
Note: Does not wear braces anymore..
Picture: The one with blue jacket
Please help me find my missing sister.. =(
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Worlds Apart
We (Thomas and I) survived a youth lock-in event in church this past Friday night till Saturday morning. It was...DISASTROUS!! There were 4 leaders including us and about 16 teenagers. We reached church at about 630pm, and played board games, Pictionary and basketball as the crowd began to trickle in. We had pizza for dinner and then resume playing games.
At about 930pm, we had worship and Opie gave a short Word, after which all the madness . The youth were running around in the whole building, screaming, playing, shouting, throwing small packets of coffee creamer on the floor till it burst! Crazy..it was crazy!! They were loud, they were rude, they showed attitude to you. They just couldn't care less. They even broke the church bathroom door and the water fountain. They almost tore the whole place down..almost!
Most of them did NOT sleep at all. So did Opie and Thomas!! I slept 3 hours..well, barely cause i was falling in and out of sleep with all the noise of running footsteps and voices. We had to scold and correct them so many times but they just wouldn't listen. Someone even tried to steal another person's discman. All the drama in a night!
There were white kids, there were Hispanics, and we also have some black kids in the youth group. One thing that struck me was the great gulf of differences between these different people groups. Most or if not all Hispanic youth loathe the white kids. Can't blame them i guess. They are brought up in a community that feels ostracized by the white community. Hence, these Hispanic kids grow up with prejudice towards the whites! Some white kids are more withdrawn from the Hispanics and the blacks. And the blacks and the whites? ..are also worlds apart. They are so different!! and to bring them altogether in unity and love..it's so difficult.
It's almost like Malaysia. We have the Chinese, the Malays and the Indians. We say that we live in harmony..but really, it may not be as harmonious if we look under the carpet. The Chinese don't really like the Malays because they have special 'bumiputera' rights from the government. The Malays, for some reason..don't really like the Chinese. Maybe they feel treatened with the Chinese for their tremendous growth in business, education, etc. The Indians..i don't know. I'm just venting.
My point in saying all this is..the society everywhere around the world is antagonistic with each other, agree? Yes, No? Is yes..then how do we as Christians bring about peace? I'm reminded in Matthew 5..it says "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the sons of God." How then shall we live?
Will you be counted to bring peace to this hostile world??
At about 930pm, we had worship and Opie gave a short Word, after which all the madness . The youth were running around in the whole building, screaming, playing, shouting, throwing small packets of coffee creamer on the floor till it burst! Crazy..it was crazy!! They were loud, they were rude, they showed attitude to you. They just couldn't care less. They even broke the church bathroom door and the water fountain. They almost tore the whole place down..almost!
Most of them did NOT sleep at all. So did Opie and Thomas!! I slept 3 hours..well, barely cause i was falling in and out of sleep with all the noise of running footsteps and voices. We had to scold and correct them so many times but they just wouldn't listen. Someone even tried to steal another person's discman. All the drama in a night!
There were white kids, there were Hispanics, and we also have some black kids in the youth group. One thing that struck me was the great gulf of differences between these different people groups. Most or if not all Hispanic youth loathe the white kids. Can't blame them i guess. They are brought up in a community that feels ostracized by the white community. Hence, these Hispanic kids grow up with prejudice towards the whites! Some white kids are more withdrawn from the Hispanics and the blacks. And the blacks and the whites? ..are also worlds apart. They are so different!! and to bring them altogether in unity and love..it's so difficult.
It's almost like Malaysia. We have the Chinese, the Malays and the Indians. We say that we live in harmony..but really, it may not be as harmonious if we look under the carpet. The Chinese don't really like the Malays because they have special 'bumiputera' rights from the government. The Malays, for some reason..don't really like the Chinese. Maybe they feel treatened with the Chinese for their tremendous growth in business, education, etc. The Indians..i don't know. I'm just venting.
My point in saying all this is..the society everywhere around the world is antagonistic with each other, agree? Yes, No? Is yes..then how do we as Christians bring about peace? I'm reminded in Matthew 5..it says "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the sons of God." How then shall we live?
Will you be counted to bring peace to this hostile world??
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Peni-El
Just came back from dinner and spending time with the Chin family. After dinner, we had a fun time playing 'Spoons' (same concept with 'Heart Attack' game back home, difference is you grab a spoon on the table once you have the 4 same cards. last person without a spoon loses). We also played 'Pictionary' after that with Sam who came and join us shortly after. It was such a good time of laughing at each other and our attempts at drawing! We really had a good time.
Peni-El..what a name. She's the youngest daughter in the family. Aunty Irene was sharing with us the story about Peni-El's birth. The twins were pre-mature babies of about 7 months old. Peni-El was so sick when she was a newborn. She was in ICU for 4 months after birth. Her intestines had infection and made her tummy bloated up. The doctors has to cut open her stomach countless times to do surgeries on her. After few times of reoccurences of infections and surgery, the doctors decided to just leave the intestines outside of the body. The doctors also told Aunty Irene 2 or 3 times to just take Peni-El home because she will not make it through the night, but they held on to God's word and visions for them. God clearly spoke to her in dreams and His Word that Peni-El will live and that He will heal her completely.
Initially, the doctors refused to put the intestines back into baby Peni-El, but Aunty Irene and Uncle Joe insisted because God told them that when He heals, He will heal COMPLETELY. Holding on to God's words, they believed for Peni-El to be well. True enough, God healed her and they were able to take her home. She never developed proper speech until about 3.5 years old because she had ear infection that caused her ears to be clogged up with puss. She also had down-syndrome symptoms till when she was about 1 year old. Slowly but surely, God healed this child!!
What a story..what a testimony of how great His love is for Peni-El and for each of us. As i was listening to Aunty Irene speak, my tears welled up in my eyes. How great is our God..what an amazing plan and destiny He has for this girl!! Crazyyy..i cannot fully fathom God's love for us. I cannot understand why such a big God would be so interested in each individual life. Every little baby counts. Peni-El counts!!
Even through the 3 times that i was at the Chin's crib, i have really grown to like Peni-El a LOT. She reminds me a little bit of my sister..and she's just so funny! When we played Pictionary, she was LOUD, she was aggresive,..she was bursting with LIFE!! who would have thought that she was a small fragile baby who almost lost her life? But NO, God had better plans, God had a destiny for her life!
It goes the same for each of us, right? We may not have such a dramatic story like Peni-El's but everyone has a story to tell. Testimonies of God's grace and mercy..stories with God's fingerprints all over it. How great..how great is our God.
I'm just gonna go to bed meditating on this..that God is great..and greatly to be praised!!
In speechless awe of You..
Peni-El..what a name. She's the youngest daughter in the family. Aunty Irene was sharing with us the story about Peni-El's birth. The twins were pre-mature babies of about 7 months old. Peni-El was so sick when she was a newborn. She was in ICU for 4 months after birth. Her intestines had infection and made her tummy bloated up. The doctors has to cut open her stomach countless times to do surgeries on her. After few times of reoccurences of infections and surgery, the doctors decided to just leave the intestines outside of the body. The doctors also told Aunty Irene 2 or 3 times to just take Peni-El home because she will not make it through the night, but they held on to God's word and visions for them. God clearly spoke to her in dreams and His Word that Peni-El will live and that He will heal her completely.
Initially, the doctors refused to put the intestines back into baby Peni-El, but Aunty Irene and Uncle Joe insisted because God told them that when He heals, He will heal COMPLETELY. Holding on to God's words, they believed for Peni-El to be well. True enough, God healed her and they were able to take her home. She never developed proper speech until about 3.5 years old because she had ear infection that caused her ears to be clogged up with puss. She also had down-syndrome symptoms till when she was about 1 year old. Slowly but surely, God healed this child!!
What a story..what a testimony of how great His love is for Peni-El and for each of us. As i was listening to Aunty Irene speak, my tears welled up in my eyes. How great is our God..what an amazing plan and destiny He has for this girl!! Crazyyy..i cannot fully fathom God's love for us. I cannot understand why such a big God would be so interested in each individual life. Every little baby counts. Peni-El counts!!
Even through the 3 times that i was at the Chin's crib, i have really grown to like Peni-El a LOT. She reminds me a little bit of my sister..and she's just so funny! When we played Pictionary, she was LOUD, she was aggresive,..she was bursting with LIFE!! who would have thought that she was a small fragile baby who almost lost her life? But NO, God had better plans, God had a destiny for her life!
It goes the same for each of us, right? We may not have such a dramatic story like Peni-El's but everyone has a story to tell. Testimonies of God's grace and mercy..stories with God's fingerprints all over it. How great..how great is our God.
I'm just gonna go to bed meditating on this..that God is great..and greatly to be praised!!
In speechless awe of You..
Hillsong United
Yeehaaa!! Next wed, Aug the 2nd (I believe)..we're gonna go to High Point Church for a worship/concert night with Hillsong United for free!!!!!! weeee...i'm so excited. I've always wanted to go Australia for the Hillsong Conference, and now..i get to go for the United one here in Dallas. What a deal!!! So yup, if you live in Dallas..make sure you go!
Also, I found out that they will be travelling to Houston after that. Houston is another city In Texas about 4-5 hours away. And then....they will travel to EL PASO!! hahahahha...Guess what? My roomie -Sarah's parents offered to fly me to El Paso to spend time with them, after which i will drive home with Sarah for Fall sem. I will fly out on the 6th of Aug and drive back to Dallas on the 15th. Which means...i may be able to see Hillsong United in El Paso too!! =))))
Oh well...i'm just excited! Thrilled to fly on a plane again too. I wonder how it'll feel like flying..after all the roller coasters rides in Six Flags. Interesting..*think about it*
Also, I found out that they will be travelling to Houston after that. Houston is another city In Texas about 4-5 hours away. And then....they will travel to EL PASO!! hahahahha...Guess what? My roomie -Sarah's parents offered to fly me to El Paso to spend time with them, after which i will drive home with Sarah for Fall sem. I will fly out on the 6th of Aug and drive back to Dallas on the 15th. Which means...i may be able to see Hillsong United in El Paso too!! =))))
Oh well...i'm just excited! Thrilled to fly on a plane again too. I wonder how it'll feel like flying..after all the roller coasters rides in Six Flags. Interesting..*think about it*
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Hair-do
This pic was taken quite some time back..say 6 months ago? In case you're not familiar, the one one the left is Seul-Kee (Thomas's roomate) I really like this picture of myself..with my LONG hair. Uhhh..just reminiscing on how it felt to have long hair. My hair now is not extremely short. It's just about the shoulder length. I wanna post a pic of myself..maybe later, after i take a shower! =P
Heehee... ~pheng
Change is good
Hey! welcome welcome..like the new looks of my blog? hmm..maybe you'll like my new haircut too! nope, not kidding..i just got a haircut today!
Thomas and i went and visited a Singaporean family who just moved here to CFNI to attend Pastoral school in Fall sem. they're such a pleasant family..we had dinner together, talked and laughed together. Aunty Irene offered to give me a haircut while Tom and Uncle Joe went off for a car wash at 8pm! =) They have 3 daugthers: Kelley, Victoria and Peni-El. Kelley is 17 while Victoria and Peni-El are 14 yrs old. Btw, they are twins!! ..not identical though.
So, i had 3 personal assistants (Aunty Irene and the 2 younger girls) fixing my hair tonight. My hair treatment today was inclusive of cutting, hair treatment, hair wash, blow-dry and straightening. Howzz that sound? heeheee..such a blessing! *grin*
I shared with Aunty Irene that i really miss home..even cried a little bit today as i read the Frontliners' (youth back home) updates and emails. She reassured me that it will be alright..and said that they will be my family here! So sweet..and i know that she didn't say it out of courtesy. Asians don't usually do that! =))
I guess this is what church is huh? Being there to encourage one another, and to love each other. Thank you Lord for bringing this family..and for crossing our paths. Thank you..
your child..
pheng
Thomas and i went and visited a Singaporean family who just moved here to CFNI to attend Pastoral school in Fall sem. they're such a pleasant family..we had dinner together, talked and laughed together. Aunty Irene offered to give me a haircut while Tom and Uncle Joe went off for a car wash at 8pm! =) They have 3 daugthers: Kelley, Victoria and Peni-El. Kelley is 17 while Victoria and Peni-El are 14 yrs old. Btw, they are twins!! ..not identical though.
So, i had 3 personal assistants (Aunty Irene and the 2 younger girls) fixing my hair tonight. My hair treatment today was inclusive of cutting, hair treatment, hair wash, blow-dry and straightening. Howzz that sound? heeheee..such a blessing! *grin*
I shared with Aunty Irene that i really miss home..even cried a little bit today as i read the Frontliners' (youth back home) updates and emails. She reassured me that it will be alright..and said that they will be my family here! So sweet..and i know that she didn't say it out of courtesy. Asians don't usually do that! =))
I guess this is what church is huh? Being there to encourage one another, and to love each other. Thank you Lord for bringing this family..and for crossing our paths. Thank you..
your child..
pheng
Sunday, July 23, 2006
..and I am not
Today while traveling to church in the evening for leaders meeting, we were listening to Steven Curtis Chapman in the car. We were already listening to the same album the day before..but today, it hit me as i listen to this one song with a particular line that says.."God is God, and I am not.."
When Pr Joe (senior pastor) was sharing his heart in the meeting..he mentioned that the bottom line of next week's message can be summed up in one line: "God is God and I am not" !!!...
I have been very concerned especially just last night, about where God is leading me and us (Thomas & I) when our time here in the States is up. What ministry/church/organisation do we serve under..dadadaa..things like that. In the midst of uncertainty..i know that He is reassuring me that He is God and I am not..i'm just a man. I can plan and wish for and try to look ahead..but some times, when i'm done desiring and dreaming big and visioneering, it still takes a step of faith to trust that He holds the future. He knows what's best..and that He will guide and lead me like a Good Shepherd. Like the saying goes, "we'll cross the bridge when we reach there"
So, i shall not fret, thought difficult it will be. i will trust in my God, my Lord..my friend, because i know..that He holds my future. He has a bigger and better plan for me that all the great things i can ever imagine or dream of with my human mind.
...i'm gonna hit the sack. goodnight..
pheng
When Pr Joe (senior pastor) was sharing his heart in the meeting..he mentioned that the bottom line of next week's message can be summed up in one line: "God is God and I am not" !!!...
I have been very concerned especially just last night, about where God is leading me and us (Thomas & I) when our time here in the States is up. What ministry/church/organisation do we serve under..dadadaa..things like that. In the midst of uncertainty..i know that He is reassuring me that He is God and I am not..i'm just a man. I can plan and wish for and try to look ahead..but some times, when i'm done desiring and dreaming big and visioneering, it still takes a step of faith to trust that He holds the future. He knows what's best..and that He will guide and lead me like a Good Shepherd. Like the saying goes, "we'll cross the bridge when we reach there"
So, i shall not fret, thought difficult it will be. i will trust in my God, my Lord..my friend, because i know..that He holds my future. He has a bigger and better plan for me that all the great things i can ever imagine or dream of with my human mind.
...i'm gonna hit the sack. goodnight..
pheng
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Busy!!
I had a tiring week this past week. So many things and events..but i thoroughly enjoyed myself!
On Tuesday midnight (after my work), Sam Thecka, Seul Kee and I planned a surprise for Tom for his birthday on the 19th of July! After Tom walked me home to my apt from work, i took the raspberry cheesecake that i made and met up with Sam. We hurried to Tom's car and left the cake with a lighted candle in his car!! and if you're wondering..NO, we didn't blow up the car! =) Then, I called Tom on his cellphone and asked him to check if i left my key in the car. While he was making his way down to the car, Sam and I ran up to his apt and Seul Kee let us into the bedroom. By the time Tom called me on my cell and made his way back to his house, we came out of his room singing the birthday song!! Hahahaa..it wasn't like a BIG BIG surprise..but we really wanted him to feel special and loved! =) Then we had the cheesecake together..which i thought was a little brown, BUT everyone liked it very much! *grin*
The following day on Wednesday, i went to work at 7am!..and left work at 10am to forth worth zoo (about 45 mins away) together with Tom on his birthday. It was such a HOT day..about 105F...it was ridiculous. We were sweating like pigs! =) We saw lots of animals..it was REALLY fun. My fav animal was the "king kong"..it was so HUGE! We spent the rest of the day in Forth Worth..and also met up with Jeff, a close friend who just came back to visit from China!
On Thursday, I went to work at 7am again! by now..i only slept 4.5 each night for 2 nights in a row. I worked until 12pm..and then headed to Six Flags with my church youth. I am very afraid of heights and roller coasters..but this time around, i enjoyed myself SO MUCH!!! I had my eyes open the whole time on all the roller coasters. I'm just so happy that i'm not afraid of taking roller coasters anymore! My fav ride in the whole park was the 'Batman' and the 'Texas Giant'-a big roller coaster ride made with just WOOD..except the nails, of course. Wanna find out more?..go to sixflags.com and check it out!! =)
On Friday, i also worked at 7am. In the evening, Tom, Sam T, Jeff, Amanda, Matt, Diana, Catherine and I went to a chinese restaurant to celebrate Tom's bday!! it was good to eat chinese food again!! We spent the rest of the night talking and laughing in Tom's crib...
I was sooooooooooo tired..i slept from Saturday 1am to 12pm-Sat noon. 11 hours of sleep..and still i feel a bit strange. I think i still need to catch up on some sleep. Hahaaa...i'm glad the busy week is over..and YFN is also over. Which means i have no work until when school starts in 4 weeks time!! woohooo....
Just a little update on what's happening this past week. I thought it was interesting to share... =)
i miss home..pheng
On Tuesday midnight (after my work), Sam Thecka, Seul Kee and I planned a surprise for Tom for his birthday on the 19th of July! After Tom walked me home to my apt from work, i took the raspberry cheesecake that i made and met up with Sam. We hurried to Tom's car and left the cake with a lighted candle in his car!! and if you're wondering..NO, we didn't blow up the car! =) Then, I called Tom on his cellphone and asked him to check if i left my key in the car. While he was making his way down to the car, Sam and I ran up to his apt and Seul Kee let us into the bedroom. By the time Tom called me on my cell and made his way back to his house, we came out of his room singing the birthday song!! Hahahaa..it wasn't like a BIG BIG surprise..but we really wanted him to feel special and loved! =) Then we had the cheesecake together..which i thought was a little brown, BUT everyone liked it very much! *grin*
The following day on Wednesday, i went to work at 7am!..and left work at 10am to forth worth zoo (about 45 mins away) together with Tom on his birthday. It was such a HOT day..about 105F...it was ridiculous. We were sweating like pigs! =) We saw lots of animals..it was REALLY fun. My fav animal was the "king kong"..it was so HUGE! We spent the rest of the day in Forth Worth..and also met up with Jeff, a close friend who just came back to visit from China!
On Thursday, I went to work at 7am again! by now..i only slept 4.5 each night for 2 nights in a row. I worked until 12pm..and then headed to Six Flags with my church youth. I am very afraid of heights and roller coasters..but this time around, i enjoyed myself SO MUCH!!! I had my eyes open the whole time on all the roller coasters. I'm just so happy that i'm not afraid of taking roller coasters anymore! My fav ride in the whole park was the 'Batman' and the 'Texas Giant'-a big roller coaster ride made with just WOOD..except the nails, of course. Wanna find out more?..go to sixflags.com and check it out!! =)
On Friday, i also worked at 7am. In the evening, Tom, Sam T, Jeff, Amanda, Matt, Diana, Catherine and I went to a chinese restaurant to celebrate Tom's bday!! it was good to eat chinese food again!! We spent the rest of the night talking and laughing in Tom's crib...
I was sooooooooooo tired..i slept from Saturday 1am to 12pm-Sat noon. 11 hours of sleep..and still i feel a bit strange. I think i still need to catch up on some sleep. Hahaaa...i'm glad the busy week is over..and YFN is also over. Which means i have no work until when school starts in 4 weeks time!! woohooo....
Just a little update on what's happening this past week. I thought it was interesting to share... =)
i miss home..pheng
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Tres Leche Cake
Heehee..i've wanted to put this up here in my blog..but i've no computer to use lah. Neways, i made my FIRST cake ever and it's called 'tres leche' which means 'three milk' in Spanish. It's basically just white cake with 3 kinds of milk mixed together and poured over the cake that has holes made in it to absorb the milk. So, it's a wet kind of cake..it's sweet, but i personally like it very much.
I made it the other day on the 16th of June for my friend's birthday..and i think it's quite successful because even Thomas liked it (i think he has high expectations for food..somewhat, i think*haha*)
I made it the other day on the 16th of June for my friend's birthday..and i think it's quite successful because even Thomas liked it (i think he has high expectations for food..somewhat, i think*haha*)
Mixing the cake mix at wee hours in the morning..
Baked cake...!!! 
Taadaaa!!! "Tres Leche cake"...
The next cake i wanna make is cheesecake. I dunno when i can do that with my crazy 40 hours work schedule now. But..i'm excited!! =))
chef wannabe?? ...pheng
New Arrival
Hey ya'll!! I've just received my "NEW" laptop TODAY!! The old laptop that my brother gave me kinda 'died' some time ago..showing prominent signs of old age. So, now i have this Sony Vaio laptop to use. I bought it from Seul Kee (Thomas's roomate) for a reasonable price. It's about a year old, still running very welll. What a blessing..thank you Lord. I recognize that all good and perfect gift comes from our Father above..so yes, thank you Lord.
This will make communication easier for me. I've been a little out of touch from the cyber world. Now, i can write and reply emails easier and faster. woohooo..
thanks Dear for 'fixing' this pc for me. i appreciate it! =)
pheng..
This will make communication easier for me. I've been a little out of touch from the cyber world. Now, i can write and reply emails easier and faster. woohooo..
thanks Dear for 'fixing' this pc for me. i appreciate it! =)
pheng..
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Is there more??
I've just been discouraged lately..very discouraged actually for the past month or so about youth ministry in my church here in America. It's been so difficult that i 'feel' ready to go home. Yet a part of me know that i'll be here for a little while longer for education purposes. After i'm done with school, i'll be more than exhilarated to go home. i am so ready to go back to ministry as i know it.
Youth ministry here has been discouraging in many ways. There is NO prayer involved in this ministry watsoever. There's no emphasis on that. There seem to be no dependence on God and the Holy Spirit. It feels like a machine..just running and running simply because it has to. There's not much or any place for God to come in. Events are planned to fill in the summer break. More fun oriented than God-oriented. After all, aren't we supposed to be the church and not an entertainment bazar?
There's no opportunity for youth to respond after service..rarely. There's no ministry like i know it..ministry-you know? Like laying hands, praying for people, hearing from God on their behalf and release words of knowledge/ prophecy/ affirmation/ encouragement/ rebuke even!!
VISION!! Without vision, my people cast off restrain. There is no vision for the youth! The leaders have no vision, no name for the youth group. The task of naming the youth group is casually tossed to the young people to create or cook up something 'cool'. What about God in the picture? What does God have in His heart for this group of youth here in Dallas, Texas? I'm sure it's our responsibilty as LEADERS to cast a vision and challenge people to catch it, and run with it. I'm sure there is a purpose to everything..how much more for this generation that's dying and LOST?
Yes, God wants me here in this youth group..for this season of time. BUT what am i doing? i don't preach, don't minister or pray for people..*hardly* so tell me, what am i here for? Lord, what am i here for? what is my role? this is so sad..it is horrible!! I don't know how long this will go on..but Lord please, do something..either with me or with the leadership..or show up Lord. How i miss being in your presence with people who hunger for more of you. Am i judgmental on the youth here..or the leadership? I don't want to..but it's so hard..
I'm sure there's more to this madness? Or is this all meaningless and vain as Soloman says it. At the end of the day, what's important is to fear you and keep Your commands right? And if i believe that You have CALLED and PLACED me here in this ministry and in this church, then i want to obey..but again, please Lord pleaseeee..do something. I NEED YOU, we need you, the leadership needs you, the YOUTH needs you, America needs You Lord!!
frustrated, disillusioned & discouraged.
*tears* take me home Lord..pheng
Youth ministry here has been discouraging in many ways. There is NO prayer involved in this ministry watsoever. There's no emphasis on that. There seem to be no dependence on God and the Holy Spirit. It feels like a machine..just running and running simply because it has to. There's not much or any place for God to come in. Events are planned to fill in the summer break. More fun oriented than God-oriented. After all, aren't we supposed to be the church and not an entertainment bazar?
There's no opportunity for youth to respond after service..rarely. There's no ministry like i know it..ministry-you know? Like laying hands, praying for people, hearing from God on their behalf and release words of knowledge/ prophecy/ affirmation/ encouragement/ rebuke even!!
VISION!! Without vision, my people cast off restrain. There is no vision for the youth! The leaders have no vision, no name for the youth group. The task of naming the youth group is casually tossed to the young people to create or cook up something 'cool'. What about God in the picture? What does God have in His heart for this group of youth here in Dallas, Texas? I'm sure it's our responsibilty as LEADERS to cast a vision and challenge people to catch it, and run with it. I'm sure there is a purpose to everything..how much more for this generation that's dying and LOST?
Yes, God wants me here in this youth group..for this season of time. BUT what am i doing? i don't preach, don't minister or pray for people..*hardly* so tell me, what am i here for? Lord, what am i here for? what is my role? this is so sad..it is horrible!! I don't know how long this will go on..but Lord please, do something..either with me or with the leadership..or show up Lord. How i miss being in your presence with people who hunger for more of you. Am i judgmental on the youth here..or the leadership? I don't want to..but it's so hard..
I'm sure there's more to this madness? Or is this all meaningless and vain as Soloman says it. At the end of the day, what's important is to fear you and keep Your commands right? And if i believe that You have CALLED and PLACED me here in this ministry and in this church, then i want to obey..but again, please Lord pleaseeee..do something. I NEED YOU, we need you, the leadership needs you, the YOUTH needs you, America needs You Lord!!
frustrated, disillusioned & discouraged.
*tears* take me home Lord..pheng
Friday, May 19, 2006
His Everlasting Love
Ever wondered how God can love the person you see in the mirror each day?
Ever felt as though it's still such a long way to go untill you finally become a little more Christ-like?
Ever felt like God made a mistake creating you?
Ever felt like you've let God down so many times that you don't deserve another shot at it?
Those are just thoughts..not necessarily are all mine. Was looking at some of the pics in Tom's laptop..was reflecting a little. These thoughts hit me..that God REALLY, and i mean REALLY honestly think that He did a good job after creating each person on planet earth. He looks at a blob of mess birthed out of a womb and say that we are wonderfully and fearfully made. Even years down the road..when some of us are still a big blob of mess..He STILL thinks the same toward us. I don't know..it just hit me once again, that God really likes me..in spite of me, in spite of the terrible things i do, think or feel..He likes me, He LOVES me. He DOES!! that's crazyy! i can never ever comprehend His love, can i?
He loves me just the way i am, but He loves me enough not to leave me the way i am..
How great is His love lavished upon us. I love you Lord..
under construction..
beryl
Ever felt as though it's still such a long way to go untill you finally become a little more Christ-like?
Ever felt like God made a mistake creating you?
Ever felt like you've let God down so many times that you don't deserve another shot at it?
Those are just thoughts..not necessarily are all mine. Was looking at some of the pics in Tom's laptop..was reflecting a little. These thoughts hit me..that God REALLY, and i mean REALLY honestly think that He did a good job after creating each person on planet earth. He looks at a blob of mess birthed out of a womb and say that we are wonderfully and fearfully made. Even years down the road..when some of us are still a big blob of mess..He STILL thinks the same toward us. I don't know..it just hit me once again, that God really likes me..in spite of me, in spite of the terrible things i do, think or feel..He likes me, He LOVES me. He DOES!! that's crazyy! i can never ever comprehend His love, can i?
He loves me just the way i am, but He loves me enough not to leave me the way i am..
How great is His love lavished upon us. I love you Lord..
under construction..
beryl
Monday, April 24, 2006
Horrible
Ever felt the deep guilt that accompanies your sin? Remember how much sorrow and regret it brought? Shame and disappointment with yourself? Yet knowing that God freely forgives and removes our transgressions ..as far as from the east to the west?
I felt so horrible today..I spent my whole weekend preparing a sermon for the youth. I had plans to do my readings for Pentateuch and New Testament class on Sunday after church. When Sunday came, i spent the afternoon at Matt and Diana's baby shower. I thoroughly enjoyed it..after which i spent my evening watching a movie with Tom, Matt and Diana..and talked the rest of the evening through. By the time i reached home, i was dead tired.
Is that sin? No i don't think so..but it's the same emotions i feel when i sin! I went up to Dr. Seif, my lecturer and asked if i can write a paper to make up for my late and UNDONE readings. He gave me a half-joking, half-accusing look and asked me why i didn't do my readings. He gave me grace..said that i could write a little something about 1 & 2 Timothy that i was supposed to read. I walked out that class with my head down. i felt so HORRIBLE!!! almost disgusted with myself. "too hard on myself?" i don't think so! i should have done it even if i have to sacrifice some sleep!!
oh well.."it's all good" like Sarah, my roomie would say. This leaves me with today's readings, Wednesday's readings, Friday's readings, and a paper to write. I should stop venting?? sigh...
I, Berylynn Pheng Pheng Yeoh WILL NEVER MISS MY READING ASSIGNMENTS EVER AGAIN!! .......... amen! =)
not giving up..
pheng
I felt so horrible today..I spent my whole weekend preparing a sermon for the youth. I had plans to do my readings for Pentateuch and New Testament class on Sunday after church. When Sunday came, i spent the afternoon at Matt and Diana's baby shower. I thoroughly enjoyed it..after which i spent my evening watching a movie with Tom, Matt and Diana..and talked the rest of the evening through. By the time i reached home, i was dead tired.
Is that sin? No i don't think so..but it's the same emotions i feel when i sin! I went up to Dr. Seif, my lecturer and asked if i can write a paper to make up for my late and UNDONE readings. He gave me a half-joking, half-accusing look and asked me why i didn't do my readings. He gave me grace..said that i could write a little something about 1 & 2 Timothy that i was supposed to read. I walked out that class with my head down. i felt so HORRIBLE!!! almost disgusted with myself. "too hard on myself?" i don't think so! i should have done it even if i have to sacrifice some sleep!!
oh well.."it's all good" like Sarah, my roomie would say. This leaves me with today's readings, Wednesday's readings, Friday's readings, and a paper to write. I should stop venting?? sigh...
I, Berylynn Pheng Pheng Yeoh WILL NEVER MISS MY READING ASSIGNMENTS EVER AGAIN!! .......... amen! =)
not giving up..
pheng
Friday, March 17, 2006
Acres Of Hope
Acres Of Hope
Shane & Shane
He will allure her
He will pursue her
And call her out
To wilderness with flowers in His hand
She is responding
Beat up and hurting
Deserving death
But offerings of life are found instead
She will sing
She will sing
Oh, to You
She will sing as in the days of youth
As You lead her away
To valleys low
To acres of hope
Acres of hope
Here in the valley
Walk close beside me
Don't look back
For love is growing vineyards up ahead
You have called me master
And though you're in the dark here
Call me friend
And call me lover and marry me for good
She will sing
She will sing
Oh, to You
She will sing as in the days of youth
As You lead her away
To valleys low
To acres of hope
Acres of hope
How the story ends is
Love and tenderness in Him
Not safe, but worth it
So the valley? up ahead
Or the ones we live
We'll sing together
We'll sing together
We will sing
We will sing
Oh, to You
We will sing as in the days of youth
As You lead us away
To valleys low
To acres of hope
Acres of hope
Lord, sustain me in the valley. Give me ears to hear Your sweet tender voice and lead me in to acres of hope in this dry and weary land.?"Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will sing as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt. In that day, declares the LORD, you will call me 'my husband'; you will no longer call me 'my master. (Hosea 2:14-16)
"I am so passionate about you, that I shun you not when you stray away, but I will gently draw you close to Me again. I will do anything to win your heart..I have given you life in My Son. Walk with me, come hold my hand and walk with me. I am all that you will ever need...I LOVE YOU"-God
Shane & Shane
He will allure her
He will pursue her
And call her out
To wilderness with flowers in His hand
She is responding
Beat up and hurting
Deserving death
But offerings of life are found instead
She will sing
She will sing
Oh, to You
She will sing as in the days of youth
As You lead her away
To valleys low
To acres of hope
Acres of hope
Here in the valley
Walk close beside me
Don't look back
For love is growing vineyards up ahead
You have called me master
And though you're in the dark here
Call me friend
And call me lover and marry me for good
She will sing
She will sing
Oh, to You
She will sing as in the days of youth
As You lead her away
To valleys low
To acres of hope
Acres of hope
How the story ends is
Love and tenderness in Him
Not safe, but worth it
So the valley? up ahead
Or the ones we live
We'll sing together
We'll sing together
We will sing
We will sing
Oh, to You
We will sing as in the days of youth
As You lead us away
To valleys low
To acres of hope
Acres of hope
Lord, sustain me in the valley. Give me ears to hear Your sweet tender voice and lead me in to acres of hope in this dry and weary land.?"Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she will sing as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt. In that day, declares the LORD, you will call me 'my husband'; you will no longer call me 'my master. (Hosea 2:14-16)
"I am so passionate about you, that I shun you not when you stray away, but I will gently draw you close to Me again. I will do anything to win your heart..I have given you life in My Son. Walk with me, come hold my hand and walk with me. I am all that you will ever need...I LOVE YOU"-God
Friday, March 10, 2006
Spring Break
I just finished my Mid Terms this week! Glad that it's now Spring Break for a week. I won't be working at all for this week..both at starbucks and at the library. so, i get to rest a little, and crank up my engine to do more readings again when the spring break ends.
also, i may be going to classes from 800-1200pm every weekday this week to just sit for Systematic Theology class by Dr. Seif (my all-time FAV teacher) i don't need the credits but i just want to learn MORE from him as much as i can. He's sooooooo brainy. i wonder how a brain can store so much knowledge and wisdom! God is GREAT!!
also..i'm excited because a very gorgeous good friend of mine will be here for the Spring break! in fact, he's arriving tonight!! who else??..MIMI!! also, i'm having Danielle over at my little 'house' for two nights while she and her dad (Mr. Chuck) checks out CFNI. and thennnnn....Pr. Mike will be visiting for a week too, arriving this Thursday!! hahahha...this is sooo cool! i'm excited..
..and a little tired too. i should go..have a good one~
precious one..beryl
also, i may be going to classes from 800-1200pm every weekday this week to just sit for Systematic Theology class by Dr. Seif (my all-time FAV teacher) i don't need the credits but i just want to learn MORE from him as much as i can. He's sooooooo brainy. i wonder how a brain can store so much knowledge and wisdom! God is GREAT!!
also..i'm excited because a very gorgeous good friend of mine will be here for the Spring break! in fact, he's arriving tonight!! who else??..MIMI!! also, i'm having Danielle over at my little 'house' for two nights while she and her dad (Mr. Chuck) checks out CFNI. and thennnnn....Pr. Mike will be visiting for a week too, arriving this Thursday!! hahahha...this is sooo cool! i'm excited..
..and a little tired too. i should go..have a good one~
precious one..beryl
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Art
The highest artist, in the eyes of the Jewish teachers of all generations, is not the greatest master in self-expression, but in self-control; he who fashions himself into a sanctuary. Such a view sounds strange in modern ears. One of the saddest phenomena of the age is the misuse of Art for the perversion of Youth. Art is divine and must be divinely used. When the Hebrew spirit prevails over the Greek, he strips it of its pagan sensuality, so that its beauty stands revealed untarnished by barbaric or ungodly association (Soloman J. Soloman)
If you're amazed at the paragraph above..don't be deceived! =) i wished i wrote that BUT i didn't. *grin* i was reading for my Pentateuch class and this is the Jewish commentary on the part when the artists were labouring on the building of the Tabernacle.
I really like this passage and absolutely LIKE how he worded it so beautifully and with so much truth! Hmmm...*think about it*
pheng..
If you're amazed at the paragraph above..don't be deceived! =) i wished i wrote that BUT i didn't. *grin* i was reading for my Pentateuch class and this is the Jewish commentary on the part when the artists were labouring on the building of the Tabernacle.
I really like this passage and absolutely LIKE how he worded it so beautifully and with so much truth! Hmmm...*think about it*
pheng..
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Nooma
I really should be taking a nap (haha..like it's a necessity) but i am fascinated by the short clips in this website. i watched one of it in my class today..titled "luggage". If you have time or any interest at all..go check it out! http://www.nooma.com/
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pheng
Monday, February 20, 2006
Baby
Hey..was thinking, I now have TWO darlings. So i should also show you all the other niece of mine..newly born baby on the 28th of Jan 2006! woohoooo!!!! Her name is Eloise Khaw Kai Ling. Felicia's name is Felicia Khaw Kai Xin. In this picture, I think she's just a week old. I wonder how much she's changed by now. Anyway..
Aaaaaahhhh.... =))
Aaaaaahhhh.... =))
Hot Chicks
Yo peeps! I was just looking at my niece-Felicia's pictures. And this is my favourite pic. Felicia is almost 1 year and a month old!! The other hot chick in the picture is my beloved, CRAZEEE sister, Emily..or lovingly known as "ah yee". Don't you think this is such a nice picture??!!
Disclaimer: This is an aunt-niece picture. Not her mummy laa...
Blessings..berylynn
Disclaimer: This is an aunt-niece picture. Not her mummy laa...
Blessings..berylynn
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Heart's Cry
Though i'm as sheep prone to wonder,
This is my yearning as I ponder..
I will RUN, I won't CRAWL,
Until I hear the call,
I will STAND, I won't FALL,
Until I see the Lord!
berylynn
This is my yearning as I ponder..
I will RUN, I won't CRAWL,
Until I hear the call,
I will STAND, I won't FALL,
Until I see the Lord!
berylynn
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
His Calling
Just today itself..i sense God speaking to me about His calling. No specifics actually..but just his nudging and challenging my heart about calling, His calling on my life.
Before Moses spent his 40 years in the desert tending sheep, he already had such passion and burden in his heart to deliver his fellow Hebrew brethen from slavery..though his heart's desire didn't translate into actions quite right! And after 40 years, when God appeared to him and told him to lead His people out of Egypt, he REFUSED! after all that 'bargaining' with God, he SURRENDERED to God's call.
In those 40 years, i believe his passion to deliver his people didn't fade away. God uses that passion and desire in Moses and calls him to do just that! MANY times, God calls us to do something that we already have the heart and passion to. imagine trying to pick up a lump of clay with a huge magnet..it won't budge. but now, picture picking another lump of clay that has magnet inside!! Our passion in our hearts are there for a PURPOSE, HIS purposes!
Never allow people to limit you with their theology or unbelief that you will never achieve your dreams or your deepest heart's desire. Don't let their unbelief and ideals box you in. God is so much BIGGER. He has even BIGGER dreams than we have..MOST of the time. =)
I look back on my life and thank God that i did NOT give up on my dream of going abroad to further my tertiary education..both in theology and secular. more than just a few people have discouraged my seemingly impossible dream, FEW have cheered me on. i'm glad i hung on to His promise..because i know and i know it is from Him!
so where do i go from here? i've some more dreams in my heart which still seem BIG to me right now. but i'm gonna trust the Dream Giver..because He will bring it to pass in His time!
if you're reading this entry, my encouragement to you as God encouraged me, DON'T GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS!! NEVER NEVER NEVER GIVE UP!!!
Thank you Lord..i'm grateful..truly grateful that you put dreams in my heart. Help me steady the course as I run for you.
Your child..berylynn
Before Moses spent his 40 years in the desert tending sheep, he already had such passion and burden in his heart to deliver his fellow Hebrew brethen from slavery..though his heart's desire didn't translate into actions quite right! And after 40 years, when God appeared to him and told him to lead His people out of Egypt, he REFUSED! after all that 'bargaining' with God, he SURRENDERED to God's call.
In those 40 years, i believe his passion to deliver his people didn't fade away. God uses that passion and desire in Moses and calls him to do just that! MANY times, God calls us to do something that we already have the heart and passion to. imagine trying to pick up a lump of clay with a huge magnet..it won't budge. but now, picture picking another lump of clay that has magnet inside!! Our passion in our hearts are there for a PURPOSE, HIS purposes!
Never allow people to limit you with their theology or unbelief that you will never achieve your dreams or your deepest heart's desire. Don't let their unbelief and ideals box you in. God is so much BIGGER. He has even BIGGER dreams than we have..MOST of the time. =)
I look back on my life and thank God that i did NOT give up on my dream of going abroad to further my tertiary education..both in theology and secular. more than just a few people have discouraged my seemingly impossible dream, FEW have cheered me on. i'm glad i hung on to His promise..because i know and i know it is from Him!
so where do i go from here? i've some more dreams in my heart which still seem BIG to me right now. but i'm gonna trust the Dream Giver..because He will bring it to pass in His time!
if you're reading this entry, my encouragement to you as God encouraged me, DON'T GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS!! NEVER NEVER NEVER GIVE UP!!!
Thank you Lord..i'm grateful..truly grateful that you put dreams in my heart. Help me steady the course as I run for you.
Your child..berylynn
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Today
Yesterday is history, today is an opportunity and tomorrow is the future. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow is blind and today is alive. Make the best out of it. Live life to the fullest by enjoying it because tomorrow will be a different day.
This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. (Psalm 118:24)
‘Yesterday is a cancelled cheque; tomorrow is a promissory note; today is ready cash – use it’ (Kay Lyons)
Today is not yesterday nor tomorrow. Today is your most precious possession. It is your only sure possession. The word ‘Today’ appears in the Scripture about 212 times. When it comes to decision-making, the Scripture always speaks of today and not tomorrow or the past.
Therefore God again set a certain day, calling it Today, when a long time later he spoke through David, as was said before: "Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts." (Heb 4:7)
If you are not aligned to him, today is the day to do it. If you have strayed away from him, today is the day for you to re-align with him.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matt 6:34)
Today is a brand new day. Let no fears creep in today from yesterday’s failures, shame or self loathe because God’s grace has wiped them out and worked to turn them into something good.
Today is an important day. It arrives fresh, offering new hopes and new dreams. Today is your day. Make the best out of it. Don’t put off doing what you want to do today because you never know what tomorrow brings. It is living today and not tomorrow that counts. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life.
For yesterday is already a dreamAnd tomorrow is only a visionBut today, well lived,Makes every yesterdayA dream of happiness,And every tomorrow a vision of hopeLook well, therefore to this day!Such is a salutation of the dawn!
~ If you miss the sunrise I made for you today, never mind. I’ll make you another one tomorrow – God ~
This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. (Psalm 118:24)
‘Yesterday is a cancelled cheque; tomorrow is a promissory note; today is ready cash – use it’ (Kay Lyons)
Today is not yesterday nor tomorrow. Today is your most precious possession. It is your only sure possession. The word ‘Today’ appears in the Scripture about 212 times. When it comes to decision-making, the Scripture always speaks of today and not tomorrow or the past.
Therefore God again set a certain day, calling it Today, when a long time later he spoke through David, as was said before: "Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts." (Heb 4:7)
If you are not aligned to him, today is the day to do it. If you have strayed away from him, today is the day for you to re-align with him.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matt 6:34)
Today is a brand new day. Let no fears creep in today from yesterday’s failures, shame or self loathe because God’s grace has wiped them out and worked to turn them into something good.
Today is an important day. It arrives fresh, offering new hopes and new dreams. Today is your day. Make the best out of it. Don’t put off doing what you want to do today because you never know what tomorrow brings. It is living today and not tomorrow that counts. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life.
For yesterday is already a dreamAnd tomorrow is only a visionBut today, well lived,Makes every yesterdayA dream of happiness,And every tomorrow a vision of hopeLook well, therefore to this day!Such is a salutation of the dawn!
~ If you miss the sunrise I made for you today, never mind. I’ll make you another one tomorrow – God ~
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